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Forward thinking Chief vs. the “good ol boy system” … who has Public Safety’s best interest in mind for Botetourt County?

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Botetourt County’s Emergency Services has made our local news again. Just over a year ago, the County hired Carr Boyd to serve as their Emergency Services Coordinator. It was a HUGE debate and met with a lot of criticism.

Several of the County’s Volunteer Chiefs ( two, more so than others ) were very out spoken and did not support the hiring of this position. At the time, it seemed as if their main argument against the position was that the Coordinator would have the authority to assume command of an emergency incident if necessary. One Chief (now former) was even quoted as saying ….

if an emergency services director assumes control of a scene “there are going to be a lot of hurt feelings and busted noses.”

 They were using terms like “my scene” and saying things like they didn’t need anyone coming in “here” and telling them how or what to do. There were a lot of egos flying around and it seemed to me that the only people who could get hurt were the ones whom Botetourt’s Emergency Services were there to protect … it’s citizens and visitors.

Here’s a quote from an article I posted back when this all started … “This job is NOT ABOUT YOU or being in “CONTROL”. It’s not YOUR fire. It’s about the people we have sworn to serve and protect. There is no shame in asking for or accepting help. If supplemental paid positions will decrease response times and  increase the level of Public Safety in Botetourt County, then I’m all for it and any Chief in his right mind should be as well. Drop the egos and do the right thing guys. DO YOUR JOB … I have family who lives there and I’m depending on you!  ALL OF YOU !” Read that entire article in the link below …

VOLUNTEER VS. PAID …RESPECT MY AUTHORITAH !!!

Well, it took just over a year for them to accomplish their goal. I hope they’re happy.

Earlier this week, it was announced that Carr Boyd will resign from the position effective at the end of the month. Some local coverage and video in the links below …

From WDBJ 7

From Roanoke.com

Above, I said it took “them” just over a year to accomplish their goal. By that, I meant the group that opposed the position in the first place…. YEA …. they never went away (well … one of em did). Some are actually still serving as Volunteers within the County (some being Chief and/or Company Officers).

More “hurt feelings and busted noses” for Botetourt County’s Emergency Services.

First off, I’m EMBARRASSED. I’m embarrassed and ASHAMED. There’s a WHOLE lot more to this story than is being told (in the “main stream” media anyway).

I’m embarrassed and ashamed because it seems as if Chief Boyd has been hung out to dry. The only person stepping out in support of him is, the newly appointed (and former) Buchanan Volunteer Fire Chief; John Manspile. In an article on Roanoke.com Cheif Manspile said …

“He’s been exactly what this county needed,” Buchanan Volunteer Fire Chief John Manspile said. “He’s been doing what was practical, what needs to be done. … I can’t see where he’s done anything wrong.”

Chief Boyd has yet to comment publicly on the issue. He’s showing a level of tact and restraint I don’t think I myself possess.

I’ve been looking (waiting) for someone to EXPLAIN. To tell us the details. Why would Chief Carr relocate his family all the way from NC to work a single year and then retire? Because he was FORCED OUT … that’s why (or that’s my opinion anyway).

I’m getting reports (off the record) that some members of the group that initially opposed the position and Boyd’s hiring never gave up their fight.

Reportedly lead by one of the Volunteer Fire Chiefs, who is himself a convicted felon; this group set out to rid the County of Boyd and apparently they have succeeded … BUT AT WHO’S COST?

It’s rumored that the group discovered an issue with Boyd’s training. I say “rumored” because I haven’t confirmed it as of yet. We know he was a Captain (and “Acting” Battalion Chief) in Charlotte, NC before coming to Botetourt County. He must have had some training.

 The rumor continues that the group took the issue to the Board of Supervisors and gave the option … Boyd’s resignation or the resignation of several of the volunteers. If that is indeed the case, and how it “went down”; then the Board made the WRONG decision.

Read “Volunteer Leadership” Click HERE

Is this a “paid vs volunteer” or a “good ol boy club” issue? The County has already said that they plan to fill the position. I wonder if the same group opposes that? Or maybe it was just Chief Boyd they opposed? I wonder who they would support for the position …. one of their own?

Someone who wouldn’t have to make the tough decisions. Someone who wouldn’t have to enforce policy? Ahhhhh ….. the ol 2 steps forward, 6 steps back game!

Read some of the comments from Roanoke.com Click HERE 

 Just recently, the Botetourt’s Board of Supervisors heard the story of Volunteer Companies being unable to staff units while citizens were on scene performing CPR for extended period of time.

Like many other Departments across the Country, Botetourt needs to find new ways to meet the needs of their citizens. They need to find a new way of doing business in relation to providing Emergency Services. Carr Boyd was doing just that.

I’m not sure if the answer is through a Combination ,  Career or all Volunteer System but I do know they need to become “forward thinking” rather than taking leaps backwards (like it appears they just have). I also feel that whatever direction they decide to go, convicted felons and those who place personal gain over Public Safety shouldn’t be a part of it. The past Buchanan “issues” in Botetourt should have proven that point to the Supervisors.

I have spoken to Carr Boyd recently. Although he would not comment on the current issues, he did share that his main concern at this point is assuring that the members of Botetourt’s Emergency Services are taken care of (career and volunteer members) through this ordeal.

I’m sure he could have “thrown some stones” …. he didn’t. Instead, he took the road of a good Officer … of a good Leader … even after all this, he’s “looking after the men” (and women). Carr Boyd is a CLASS ACT. I wish some of remaining Officers in Botetourt County were more like him.

I wrote this post a couple days ago and have had it awaiting publishing in my que. Apparently, someone was looking over my shoulder as I was typing. I say this because of a comment I received last night. If you missed it, I posted it in a short stand alone post late last night.

Use the link below and take a look… it may help you understand just a little more of some of the challenges (and types of people) Carr Boyd faced over the past year…

Read CHRISTINE PADERICK … STOP READING THIS SITE!

I say instead of the Director of Emergency Services, Botetourt should rid their Department of Felons and allow the professionals (volunteer and career) to do their jobs and perform their duties.

I have a LOT more to say on this issue and will continue to gather the facts for a follow up post.

Stay Safe and in House!

Captain Wines

Promotions … “Silly Season” is here, recruitment, retention and more!

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First off, let me say thank you for the continued support. My last post, “You can’t teach Heart” was very well received and I appreciate it . It’s nice to know that I still have a few readers / followers out there.

I do need to clarify one thing though. I’ve received several e-mails, phone calls, messages etc following that post saying how good it is to have the “old” Captain Wines “back”. They say they are glad I’m past (or over) my grieving etc….and that couldn’t be farther from the truth.

I know I took you folks to some “dark” places over the last 4 months but I felt compelled to do so. I shared with you some of my thoughts’ feeling and lessons learned following my brother’s death by suicide. I tried to be as honest and open as possible.

Just because I’m a little more visible and posting on a more regular basis doesn’t mean I’m “past” or “over” anything. I NEVER will be. There’s a hole in my heart that will never be filled.

There’s not an hour that goes by that I don’t think of Jackson. The reminders are EVERYWHERE and I can’t hide or run from them. I’m slowly learning to embrace them but it’s hard.

I’m fighting depression every minute I’m awake and I still grieve his death. It’s getting better but, it’s been an uphill struggle. I never knew or understood what a horrible illness / disease depression was (is) before the events of December 30th.

I haven’t told ya in a while so I’ll remind you now that we are ALL “climbing”. We are ALL fighting demons of one sort or another. I’ll also remind you that we are NOT alone … there ARE folks out there who know and understand what we are going through and they stand ready to help us through whatever challenges we face.

If you’re like me and need someone to talk to or lean on, PLEASE try one of the links below …. there’s no shame in it. It’s working for me and it can for you too …

The Sweeney AllianceFirefighter Behavioral Health AllianceNorth American Firefighter Veteran Network,

Grief.com,   Recover from Grief.com ,

Ok ….lets move on. So around where I work, it’s promotional testing time. That equates to “silly season” for me!

I call it that because everything required to participate in the process and because of all the “jockeying for position” that’s already started.

We will be testing for Lieutenant, 1st Lieutenant, Captain, and Battalion Chief. There will also be a Deputy Chief of Operations appointed due to an upcoming retirement. As far as the other positions, we don’t even know how many are open yet (around here, it all depends on who’s counting).

Promotional testing can be one of the most stressful events of a firefighter’s career. Usually, there’s a huge reading list, hours upon hours of study (additional times away from family), the testing process itself and then the waiting game.

We have a written test to narrow the field of candidates (Lieutenant-Captain) followed by a practical portion. For the Lt. candidates, the practicals are made up of a 10 minute presentation (on the same subject / topic which is announced following the written test), a driving course / evaluation, a pumping evolution and an IMS / Fire scenario.

The 1st Lt., Captain and Battalion candidates will also face a fire / IMS scenario, a “problem employee” situation and a presentation. Battalion Chief candidates will work an “in basket” scenario instead of the presentation. Again …. all very stressful.

Rhett actually took his written test on Wednesday. He take the practicals next week.  Being that he is already a Lieutenant, he has the option to test for 1st Lt and / or Captain. He is testing for both.

GOOD LUCK to all of our candidates (at every level). As a Company Officer, I hope you’ll remember to take can of your members. If you do, you’ll have a long and enjoyable career. If you don’t …. LMAO … well lets just say that they can make you life hell.

That brings me to recruitment. I HATE that word. I guess it’s not so much the word as it is how many Departments go about it (“recruitment”). They’re doing it WRONG!!

I’ve always said that if someone has to come out looking for you, and then try to convince you that “this” is what you want to do or who you want to work for … THEN I DON’T WANT YOU.  We’re FIREFIGHTERS ….. we deal with lives not files, folders or boxes!

I hear of Departments complaining about a lowered number of applicants all the time. They look at all these “outside” reasons in search for a reason /solution and always miss the issues core.

To me, it’s an internal issue. An issue within that Department. In my opinion, it shows a lack of (or poor) leadership / management (or something along those lines). Either way, I’d bet that the members of that Department are NOT  happy. That’s sad because our MEMBERS are our best recruiters and it’s so easy to keep firefighters happy!

Think about it. When the members are happy, they reflect a positive image of their Department. When they’re out in the community and someone asks them about “what they do” or where / who they work for, a happy employee is eager to share that information and does so in a positive manner.

On the other hand, an unhappy or disgruntled employee’s response will most likely be “you don’t want to work here”…. OUR MEMBERS ARE OUR BEST RECRUITERS!

My good friend and Brother Tiger Schmittendorf is one of (if not “the”) our Nation’s top fire recruiters. He’s pictured on the far left in the photo above left (with Me, Rhett and Dave Statter). Tiger runs several web sites worth visiting and if you’re having recruitment issues / problems then he’s the man you want to see.

Visit Fire Recruiter.com click HERE

I’m gonna stop here for now as I’m finding it difficult to focus.

We started our 4-day break Thursday morning and, later that evening; I decided to pull Ironfiremen.com’s mobile headquarters down to the farm.

Once again I find myself setup by the creek and to be honest, my mind is more on the camp fire and a tall tottie than it is on writing right now.

I’ll try to check back in sometime this weekend either here or on my Face Book page.

Follow IronFiremen.com on Face Book click HERE

Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

 

Positional awareness …. where the hell am I ??

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For the followers of mine (yea…both of you) who aren’t “on the job”, the term positional awareness is one we use in reference to knowing “where” you are. We often refer to it as inside a structure or building …or  at least on the fire ground. Another term that goes along with it is situational awareness … or knowing not only where you are but what is / can happen around you.

So where am I?? I wish I knew.

It’s an uncomfortable position for me. In the past, even when I’ve been somewhere I shouldn’t be;  I at least knew I was there. Now, I’m not so sure. I’m lost.

If any of ya find me, please let me know or just take me home (of course I don’t even know where “home” is anymore).

Obviously, I’m not here (where I have been or where I’m used to being). I haven’t been for 3 months now and I can’t seem to figure it out.

I’ll assume that you guys have … figured it out that is. Obviously, by my lack of postings / presence something is still not right. I also know that you’re most likely tired of hearing me whine and cry … tired of my “softer” side. Many of you have sent e-mails, comments etc excited to see bits and pieces of the “old Willie” and that style of posting back. The honest answer is that I’m just not there yet. I tried to get there but couldn’t…. not yet. At least you haven’t forgotten about me.

There is a TON of material out there and things I want to say / comment on but I just can’t find the energy to sit down and write it out. I can’t find the words. It’s not “flowing” in my mind ….. I guess it’s what they mean by writers block (if you can call me a writer…LMAO).

I’ve been in a fog. Wondering …. aimlessly. Still searching for my answers. Answers I may never find.

Maybe this direction, these type of postings is where I need to be. Maybe I can be of more help to the Brotherhood by sharing these stories than I can of my everyday firehouse life / opinion etc.

I can’t imagine keeping a very big audience along this path but if I can make a difference in just one Brother or Sister’s life, I think it would be worth it.

I don’t know where I’m going yet … hell, I’m not 100% sure of where I’ve been now that I try to put it all into perspective. I think we’ve all been here … it’s just my first trip.

For me, the hits just keep coming. I feel like I can’t keep my head above water. I’m dry but drowning!

Jack’s suicide, my moms cardiac procedure (which turned out way better than expected) and, Boot’s cancer surgery.  Everything seemed to hit at once. I’ve tried to be strong … to set an example…strong yet open. It hasn’t been easy. Everyone wants me back but I’m not sure I can get there. I’m not sure how much longer I can hold on to the little sanity I have but I’m trying.

Alison Krauss has several  lines in her song “Paper Airplane” that hits home with me … one says …. “And love is hard to measure
hidden in the rain. That’s why you’ll find me…Here all alone and still wondering why. Waiting inside for the cold to get colder…”

Another from the same song  is ….“How many days should I smile with a frown? ‘Cause you’re not around with the sun on your shoulders…”

Here’s a video of her singing the song if you’re not familiar with it or her music … I’m a HUGE fan.

Smile with a frown … sound familiar to any of ya?

Now, for me at least; it keeps piling on and I’m faced with even more challenges … more questions, more demons and battles to fight.

Today, I moved Jackson’s things out of dad’s house (that’s where he had been staying since his wife put him out and also where he decided to end his life). I smelt him as I moved every box. I smell him now. It’s was like an avalanche of emotion overtaking me once again.

It still seems like only yesterday to me but I know it’s not. I know this because yesterday, I found myself waiting once again for the phone to ring. I waited but he didn’t make that Easter morning call. I wanted to dial his number but couldn’t. Nothing is as it should be.

I don’t know how dad has done it. How he’s stayed there in the house. Past the birthdays and holidays. He’s got to be hurting as much as me and it’s killing me knowing it.

It’s even difficult for me to be around dad now. Him and Marci both look like and remind me so much of Jackson that it hurts. Worse than that … it suffocates me. I can’t explain it. Is this the life I’m left to live? Alienated from my own family?  When will it end? Will it ever? Apparently not…

Thursday, Donna (my wife); will have a lump removed from behind her breast (under her arm). We wont know what it is until they get it out and see.

The procedure is weighing heavy on my mind. She’s staying strong for me and the girls while I’m quietly bleeding out. I’m not sure how much more I can take.

I feel like an old dilapidated barn. Old and worn yet just strong enough to leave you wondering how it’s still standing.  I wish I knew. I wish I had it’s strength.

I want to leave this place … to go somewhere … anywhere but here yet I know I can’t. I know all roads will  lead me back …. back to my struggles, my challenges, back to the things you cant run from. I’ll stay and fight.

I know there are many of you out there fighting the same battles. Several of you have reached out and spoken with me personally. I’ll remind you once again of the many resources available to us. Resources unique to “public safety”…. resources who understand who we are, where we came from and the challenges we face.

Behavioral Health issues … Grief, Stress, PTSD … issues unique and as personalized as those suffering through them. Issues all of us on the job have faced (most of us anyway). Here are some links for help. Links that will help you begin your journey … friends to guide you down the path… your start to the healing process.

The Sweeney AllianceFirefighter Behavioral Health AllianceNorth American Firefighter Veteran Network,

Grief.com,   Recover from Grief.com ,

“At an international conference on Friday, March 1, the NFFF (National Fallen Firefighters Foundation) introduced a new Behavioral Health Model that changes the way the fire service assists firefighters and others on the path to healing. It is based on the concept that no two firefighters will necessarily have the same reaction — not even to the same call”.

 “Helping Firefighters Deal with Psychological Stress from Job’s Routine and Extraordinary Events”

Trust me Brothers and Sisters … USE THESE LINKS, the alternatives are NOT where we want to be. How well do you think you understand depression? Find out below …

Depression Quiz

I’ve talked about the stages of grief in a previous post titled “Melt Down”.

They are all experienced differently and in varying order but they are basically Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression,  Acceptance, Pain & Guilt, and Reconstruction.

I’d say that the odds are that many of you know someone who is grieving. I’d also bet that you’re not sure what to say or how to act around them. Maybe this link will help ….

10 Best and Worst things to say to someone grieving

As for me, I’ve talked about not being able to eat or sleep. About not being able to keep anything down (on my stomach) and having an irritable bowel. I’ve shared being unfocused and distracted from rational thought, purpose or direction. What we don’t hear a lot about is where these things can lead when left untreated. Anger, the many forms of abuse … domestic, spousal and/or substance and even suicide .

There are many Brothers and Sisters out there battling Grief, Depression and/or PTSD  that can’t see their way through or past their suffering. For many, suicide seems their only way “out”. Don’t stand idle and  watch these Brothers and Sisters fall. Like many of you have done for me, YOU CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE in their lives as well, in their healing process. Start talking about Behavioral Health in your Department (paid or volunteer, large or small). Use the links I’ve provided and look for more.

The recent events of my recovery are merely an expected bump in the road. I’ve known that a holiday, a random picture, odor, memory etc would bring back a flood of emotion. I’m still searching for my “new normal” and fighting my way back to where I want and need to be. I’ll get there. Thanks again for all the continued understanding and support. I’m still here. I know this is not the post you were hoping / looking for but it’s all I have right now.

Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

Opening up

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For those of us “on the job”, it’s a fairly common term.

We use it when talking about forcing entry into a structure or cutting a ventilation hole in the roof. Sometimes it’s even used  for vehicle extrication (using the “jaws of life” to cut open a car).

More often than not, it’s a “Truckie” term ( a firefighter assigned to a Ladder truck) although sometimes, due to today’s staffing issues; an Engine Company can be assigned these tasks.

I’ve been thinking about “opening up” and the various meanings of the term a lot here lately …. as related to the job and emotionally.

Today, I’m working an extra shift. I’m paying back a Brother (Tim Cady) who worked a day for me last week.

I’m pulling the tour at Station #1 (aka “The Big Show”) on A-shift. I’m riding the seat of the Ladder.

It’s a brand new Pierce, 100′ tiller and with a price tag of 1.2 million, she’s a sweet ride.

I spent my younger years in the Department assigned to a Ladder ….. it was  good, honest work. I’ve learned a lot since then. Truck work made me a good fireman. I’d like to think I’m older and wiser now but some will argue that.

I’ve been assigned to an Engine Company since I made Captain back in 2000. On the Engine, I’m thinking about size ups, water supply and getting to the fire.

Riding the Ladder, my thought process has to change just a bit. Today, I’m thinking about placement, forcible entry, search, rescue, ventilation, salvage, overhaul and even extrication.

“Opening up” is a priority for me and the A-Shift crew today. Opening up so so the Engine guys can get on the fire. Opening up to ventilate. Opening up to make our searches or opening up vehicles for extrication purposes.

The rig I’m riding is perfect for the job. It’s a 1.2 million dollar tool box. Everything we need to do our job … to “open up” is stored away nice and neat inside her.

It sounds difficult but it’s not. It’s all we know … it’s what we do. The other type of opening up however … the emotional opening up … that’s not so easy.

My absence from postings and social media has been pretty obvious lately.  In a recent post, “Climbing Out”; I shared with you that I am just reaching the “depression” stage of my grief (or PTSD) and it’s been a difficult journey.

The honest answer is that I just haven’t felt like writing. I still can’t seem to focus or get motivated.

I had the chance to travel up to Long Island New York last week for their Fire, Rescue and EMS Mega Show.

I got to spend the weekend with my MN8 FoxFire family. I call them “family” because they are … it was an easy decision to go.

I thought it would be “A Needed Distraction”.

In some ways, it was. I was hoping it would open some doors for me and it did …. it also slammed a few in my face.

Most of you know that Rhett (The Fire Critic) and I very seldom travel without the other but he was unable to make this trip.

Not wanting to drive alone, I figured I’d ask my sister, Marci; to tag along.

If nothing else, we’d get to spend the weekend together and that’s never a bad thing (or it shouldn’t be anyway). She was excited! We both were.

What I didn’t figure on was how emotionally difficult it would be for me (and maybe her too).

She reminds me so much of Jackson. I’ve never looked at or thought of her that way.

She looks like him. She acts like him. Her mannerisms. How she uses her hands when she talks, how she crosses her legs. How she talks. Little things but everywhere I looked, every time I turned around, she reminded me of Jackson and it breaks my heart. My stomach stayed in knots … that “sick” feeling all over again … the hurt.

I may have the same affect on her. Everyone always said that we all looked exactly alike (dad, me, Jack and Marci). I’m sure Dad sees Jack in us and I know it hurts. So here’s another door I’ll (we’ll) have to figure out how to “open up”. I’ve got to learn to be around things (including people / family) that remind me of Jack. I need to figure out how to make these “reminders” trigger the good memories and not rekindle my pain and sorrow.

I’m not sure how to do it. How to open this door.

I don’t think it’s one that can be “forced”. I think I’ve been doing too much of that lately … “forcing” the issues.

Today is two months since Jack took his life. Everyone is still asking “how” I am … how I’m “doing”.

My reply has become standard … what everyone wants to hear. I’m “ok”. I’m “hanging in”. Making it “day by day” or “one step at a time”.

I’m not so sure that’s 100% true. Click that photo to the left. Do you ever hide your true emotions with replies like that? Are you telling those around you what they “want to hear” or how you’re truly feeling?

I have to admit again that “opening up” here on the blog (as difficult as it has been to do) has been therapeutic. I think it’s been my best therapy so far. I wasn’t so sure in the beginning.

“Opening up” for all my readers to see was a huge decision for me. I wasn’t sure I even could (or should for that matter). I’m glad I have.

While in Long Island (and many times before, via e-mails etc) several Brothers and Sisters approached me with not only sympathy and condolences, but with THANKS as well. They actually thanked me for sharing my story. I don’t think I was expecting that.

Some say it’s uplifting, a source of inspiration and that it’s even helped them through their own struggles with grief.  Others say they miss the “old Willie” and that they are patiently awaiting the return of my “regular” postings while they understand and support my latest directions.

I met several GREAT Brothers and Sisters while in Long Island but one in particular will always stand out in my mind.

A true BROTHER and Captain Daniel Purcell of the Scarsdale Fire Department paid me a VERY special visit. He said he has been following my site (and Rhett’s) for a while now. When he seen I would be in Long Island, he had to come meet me.

We had a GREAT conversation. I wont share the details but it was very humbling. He brought gifts and even asked about the Buckaroo. I don’t think he was even interested in the show …. just delivering his message to me. THANKS AGAIN CAPT ! I hope you know how much that visit meant to me.

If it helps you to know, I’m not the only one talking about stress and “Behavioral Health” these days. “At an international conference on Friday, March 1, the NFFF introduced a new Behavioral Health Model that changes the way the fire service assists firefighters and others on the path to healing. It is based on the concept that no two firefighters will necessarily have the same reaction — not even to the same call”.

Learn more about what they’re doing / saying in the links below ….

“Helping Firefighters Deal with Psychological Stress from Job’s Routine and Extraordinary Events”

 Life Safety Initiatives 

And once again I’ll add my standard links / resources for grief, stress and PTSD …

Grief.com,   Recover from Grief.com The Sweeney Alliance,Firefighter Behavioral Health AllianceNorth American Firefighter Veteran Network

Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

Climbing out ….

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The good news is that I’m back in my “boots”. I’m back in bunker gear and pulling regular tours.

The bad news is that I’m still not 100% and I know I never will be again. I’m still working through the grieving process and searching for my “new normal” (read my previous post “Searching for a New Normal” by clicking HERE) .

In another previous post (“Melt Down”) , I told ya about the “stages of grief” and how grief is as individual as the person suffering through it. We don’t necessarily go through the stages in order and by no means in the same way.

I’m currently working through the “depression” stage (and, I believe; suffering through PTSD).

I was expecting it but have never fully understood exactly what “depression” was. I’m learning the hard way.

My thoughts continue to wonder with every waking moment and it’s difficult for me to focus.

I still can’t eat. I just don’t have an appetite … I’m  not hungry. When I try to force myself to eat, I throw it back up so I figure why bother.

I’m sleeping some at night now but I’m not REALLY “sleeping”. I’m tired all the time and can’t motivate myself to get out and do anything. I try to make myself go “somewhere” or do “something” but I don’t. I know I need to.

I haven’t even been able to write (evident in my recent lack of postings and absence from Face Book).

I’m not getting along well with others … I just want to be alone.

All these things seem so petty and easy to fix but they’re not.

That’s the hardest part for me. I know what’s happening and what I need to do ….. I just can’t muster the energy or motivation to get it done.

I have to start climbing my way out of this hole … I thought I have been but it doesn’t feel like I’m making much progress. I can’t stay here (like this) forever.

One of the folks I’ve been seeing offered a prescription for anti-depressants. It’s not for me. There’s a small part of me that almost took her up on it just so I could learn for myself (and share with you folks) if they (the pills) “really” work or not. Unfortunately,  I’m not the “pill” taking kind ( I hardly even even take an aspirin) so I won’t be able to tell you “first hand” about anti-depressants. I can tell you that depression is REAL . It’s an illness that can be crippling.

I see a lot of it in the firehouse for one reason or another. Not just in situations like mine (the loss of a loved one) but also over financial issues, marital problems etc. If you want to learn more about depression and take your “Depression IQ quiz”, take a minute and CLICK HERE .

The best thing for me has been talking about it. Getting “it” out of my head and off my chest. I’ve wrote about them a lot here lately but once again, I want to share with you some folks who you CAN TALK TO. People who understand and that do MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

These folks are not just for you or me either. They are there for our Brothers and Sisters as well and it’s up to us to let them know that help is available. PAY ATTENTION … look around you. If someone in your company, your Battalion, Department or whatever is needing help, point them in this direction. You know … firefighter “so and so” whos wife just left him. Ol “what’s his name” from Engine whatever who just took a 3rd mortgage out because he lost his 2nd job.  That S.O.B on the Ladder who we all know has been drinking too much …. all these Brothers have someone to turn to. Let them know before it’s too late. Here are the links ….

Grief.com,   Recover from Grief.com The Sweeney Alliance,Firefighter Behavioral Health AllianceNorth American Firefighter Veteran Network

I had a bad day yesterday. Like most everyday, there’s always something that will remind me of Jackson.

I pulled a tour Saturday (we work 24hr shifts) and when I got home yesterday morning, the Buckaroo was waiting for me. It was 8am , he missed his “Paw-Paw” and wanted to play.

He got his motorcycle toy out. It’s like the old Evil Knievel wind up toy. If you’re a boy and anywhere near my age (44), I’d bet you had one.

I showed him how to use some books / magazines to make a ramp so we could make some jumps down the hallway. It was just how me and Jack did it when we were kids.

I could see us like it was just yesterday. Then the thought hit me (as it always does in situations like this) …. I wanted to call Jackson and tell him what we were doing. He would LOVE it! Knowing that me and the Buckaroo were doing exactly what he and I did as kids. I know he’d remember our ramps … our jumps…. fighting over who went next…. he’d understand and know EXACTLY what we were feeling / doing. He’d have that unforgettable smile on his face just thinking about it.

I’ll never get to make “those” calls again … not to Jackson and it’s killing me. This grief … the depression…. it keeps knocking me down but I won’t let it keep me here.

Like I said in the beginning of this post, I have to start climbing my way out of this hole.

“CLIMBING”…… Seems I wrote about that one time …. back in July of 2011 actually in a post titled “We are all Climbing” (Take the time to hit the link and read that post … I think you’ll find it worthwhile). Stairs,  ladders or whatever obstacle, it seems we all are indeed “climbing”.

Me? I’m gonna find my way out …. I’m gonna find that “new normal” because I’m going to keep climbing …. it’s all I know to do.

I’m gonna start by getting out of town again. I’m going to head up north and spend a little time in NYC and out on Long Island.

I’m going to attend the Long Island Fire, Rescue and EMS Mega Show on Feb. 23rd / 24th. I’ll be working the booth with my MN8 FoxFire family but I’ll also be doing what I love best … meeting, spending time with and talking to all the Brothers and Sisters in attendance. I think it will be just what I need to get “moving” again …. to “re-engage” and get “back in the game”.

I’ll get ya more details in the next day or so …. until then, thanks again for all the support. Thanks too for allowing me to share all of this with you …. I LOVE YA ALL!

Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

I need a “do over” …

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I need several “do overs” actually. Unfortunately, I know that I can’t have a second chance at many of the events in my life over the past few months.

I’d give anything to be able to go back and save my brother from the dark place he found himself in on December 30, 2012. A place so dark it enabled him to make the decisions he made … the decision to take his own life. Even though it’s too late for me to change those circumstances, it’s not too late for me to bring something positive from this tragedy.

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I’ve learned so much about emotional / mental health and wellness since Jack’s suicide. I’ve learned first hand what PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) is and how it affects us. I’ve learned about grief and it’s various stages. I’ve learned that although their are many similarities in how it affects us all, it’s also (and often) very much so different for those of us “on the job” (Fire, Rescue and Police).

I’ve learned that “talking” about it helps. I’ve learned that showing and sharing emotion (as raw as it may be) is also not just “ok” but can also be therapeutic. I’ve learned that “we” , as a Fire Service; need to come to know and understand that. We NEED more education on these types of issues … our bosses do too. We need to understand that our “role model” firefighter is also HUMAN.

I’ve learned that there are some GREAT resources out there for us to “reach out” and talk to. “Sucking it up” and getting back to work is not acceptable anymore … not in my book. It shouldn’t be in yours either. I’m going to work to bring a lot of this to light. If you continue to follow the site, you’re gonna see and read a LOT about our emotional / mental health and well being…. I hope to decide to stay with me…. you deserve to know what I’m learning. YOU’RE WORTH IT…. everyone of ya.

For now, with that said; if you find yourself wanting or needing to talk to someone who will truly understand what it is you’re going through or feeling, I’ll add a few of the links I’ve been using in recent posts. Check them out and USE THEM….. they HELP.

Grief.com,   Recover from Grief.com The Sweeney Alliance,Firefighter Behavioral Health AllianceNorth American Firefighter Veteran Network

There’s another “do over” however that I may can arrange (if they’ll allow me). You guys may remember that back on January 26th, I was invited to speak at the Lexington Fire Department’s (Va) Annual Awards Dinner and Banquet. Just the invite was a HUGE honor!

I wasn’t sure I was going to be able to. I was still “lost” in my grief and unable to focus on the simplest of tasks.

Lexington’s Chief, Ty Dickerson; is not only a close and personal friend, he’s also a great mentor and leader.

Ty told me to come anyway (if I could … to speak or not). He said that if I felt like it and could, to attend so at least he could hug me again and assure me that I (and my family) were not alone (he also wanted to make sure that I was eating). If I couldn’t attend, he and his members fully understood. THAT in itself speaks VOLUMES about Chief Dickerson and the Brothers and Sisters of the Lexington Fire Department.

I had prepared a couple speeches. I arrived empty handed …. my thoughts and words seemed to “scattered”. I decided to speak, but would do it from the heart. That usually works out good for us but this time, I’m not even sure what i said.

There was so much I could have and wanted to say but it just wasn’t the “right” occasion. This was their (The Lexington Fire Department’s) first banquet as a “combined” Department and it should have been memorable.

I decided to speak about “Brotherhood” and how alive it is within their Department. So many times we hear Brothers and Sisters complaining of how “the Brotherhood” is dead in the Fire Service today but I can tell you for certain IT’S NOT.

I had just been witness to a HUGE act of Brotherhood from all across the world. Good friend and Brother Firefighter Nate Camiford. After my post “A Firefighter’s Boots”, Nate started a campaign where hundreds of Brothers and Sisters from all over the world sent me pictures of their “boots” in support of me getting back into mine. It was very humbling to say the least … I was honored.

Often times, Department’s such as Lexington just need a little “outside” reminder of how the Brotherhood is alive and well within their own Department. Like with “the boots” I had witnessed the Brotherhood at work within the Lexington Fire Department many times and wanted to share my experience with them. Here’s what I should have said…..

Usually, I don’t speak alone. Most of you know that Rhett Fleitz (The Fire Critic) and I are very seldom seen apart. We are more than a “team” … more than “partners” … more than Brothers even. I can’t explain it …. it is what it is …. you don’t get one of us without the other (most times).

Whenever Rhett and I speak about Brotherhood, we always include the values which we believe make it up …. TRADITION, PRIDE, HONOR and RESPECT.

The Lexington Fire Department (and City) has a rich history full of tradition. The banquet that night was just another example. Many new traditions were started that night as well as in some of the awards and recognition’s made. They will see many new traditions made and kept as they move forward with their new “combination” Department.

What a HUGE undertaking that in itself is. Moving from an all volunteer Department to a Combination (career and volunteer). It shows care and a concern for their community and a PRIDE in being able to overcome obstacles. Pride in being able to serve their community … to do the job we signed up to do. It takes a special group of people to make that model work. It takes strong leadership and members working together towards a common goal. It takes patience and understanding to say the least … give and take. These Brothers and Sisters are setting the standard.

I wanted to tell them about the picture I had (and shared with them at the banquet). A picture of my dad as a member of the Lexington Volunteer Fire Department from back in the late 60′s. A picture of their entire Department standing in front of their 59 Mack Fire Engine. I wanted to explain how that picture exemplifies PRIDE for a Department … for THEIR Department.

I wanted to explain how their donating that truck to the Kazim Shriners shows, HONOR and RESPECT. I wanted to explain how that was evident to me (and the members of the Melrose Misfits) when we had the honor and privilege of helping to restore some of the equipment on that truck. Seeing the name “Lexington Fire Department” spoke volumes to my members.

I seen more examples when one of their members invited me down for a birthday party. Actually, Cassie Potter (wife of Chris Potter) invited me down for a “surprise”  party for Chris. She explained how he was a loyal follower of the site and how excited he’d be to actually get to meet and spend some time with me. I was again humbled and honored.

I made the party and many new friends in Lexington. The best part was getting a personal tour of their house that night. It’s a new station and one that I hadn’t been in before (I remembered the old one downtown as a kid).

You could see the PRIDE in the eyes of their members as they showed me around. I seen it on the floors …. in the corners. NO DIRT. The equipment, station and members were IN ORDER and ready to roll. I look for that … the little things. They offered me a cup of coffee right off …. I felt at home.

They showed me their history and again I was flooded with a sense of Pride, Honor, Tradition and Respect. A full trophy case. Banners and ribbons. Wooden ladders. Hand pulled ladder trucks! I hope the Brothers and Sisters of Lexington know just how “rich” they are…. I do.

Rhett and I witnessed even more of the Brotherhood at work through the Lexington Fire Department while attending the 2012 National Fallen Firefighter’s Memorial Weekend.

There, we meet a member of the Lexington Fire Department (Michelle) who was volunteering her time to serve as an “escort” for one of the families of our fallen. There is no batter way to HONOR our fallen than to take care of their survivors. Talk about RESPECT and PRIDE!

I could go on and on. I should have back on the 26th. The City Manager, Sheriff and many other dignitaries were present and I hope they know what a valued asset they have in the Lexington Fire Department, it’s Chief and members.

I say I need a “do over” because I think it was an important message (although one that I didn’t get across). They need to hear it …. they have EARNED and deserve to hear it. The Brotherhood is alive and well in Lexington and it’s all because of their members. They have, are and will continue to make an impact / difference. Maybe Ty can find a spot to bring me back ( along with Rhett) so we (I) can deliver the message in person.

Sorry for the lack in postings …. obviously, I’m still working on getting to my “new normal”. Thanks once again for all the messages and support …. I couldn’t have made it without you all!

Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

I dont know ….

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I’d like to make this a “regular” Ironfiremen.com post. I’d like to bring ya some controversy, some training thoughts or at least a picture of some half nudity ( I was called the “titty blog” earlier this season you know?). I can’t do that …. not yet …. I’m not “normal” at this point and I’m not sure  I’ll ever be.

I’ve been giving it a lot of thought. I also know that you, my readers and followers; will only follow so much of my “preaching”. I have got to get back to somewhere close to what made you follow the site. It’s difficult to do. I WANT you to continue following  because now I know that I have something very important to tell ya …. I wasn’t always sure of that…. I am now.

We’ve hit most every subject here on Ironfiremen.com over the years. It’s most often a topic around firefighter safety and/or saving our own…. that’s where my heart lies.  To me, there’s not a more important issue to speak about. I’ve spoken of the “typical”  MAYDAY on multiple occasions. As in when a firefighter finds him or herself in danger. Knowing where, when and how to call for help and to not be ashamed of it. We’re getting better at it.

I’ve added to the topic and written about a “personal” mayday in that we also need to call for emotional support. We need somewhere or someplace to “vent”. Someone to tell what’s on our minds. A place to share our emotions and feelings.   The good and the bad. I’m not sure you understood what I was saying at the time but … PLEASE … read em again by hitting the links below….

“A BAD day for Randy gets worse … “ and  “Time for a MAYDAY”

My support following Jack’s suicide has been phenomenal. I’M LUCKY  ! I know that. Not all of you have the “reach” or support group that I’m subjected to. I wish you did …. we ALL deserve it.

Jack’s death has not been easy on me …. it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever encountered. I LOST MY BROTHER!  Dad lost a son!

He killed himself in my dad’s home …. I was there. I seen it. I worry about what dad seen and had to do before I got there. I worry about the brothers and sisters who responded to our home for this type of incident. What they had to see and their knowing that it was “our”  house and family member (Dad and myself).

I knew how to respond … as a first-responder but never thought I’d be there as a brother. Never thought about having to care for dad being there. My wife, my sister, my cousin …. friends and family. This was personal …. it was FAMILY.

I assisted in the arrangements. We took visitors, smiled, hugged and shook hands …. I didn’t want to. It’s what I was taught to do and what needed to be done. I had to “hold it together”. I slept in the basement, just feet from where Jackson slept every night. Feet from where he eventually took his own life. I say I slept but the honest answer is that I laid awake there every night … unable to sleep. Pondering, waiting for him to walk into that room.

Today / tonight is NOT all that different. I re-live those moments (many of which I can not share yet) with every breath. I think of it as “ground hog day” …. it will never end and forever haunt me.

I didn’t think I could but last week, I took a step forward. I returned to duty and I’ve never been so scared in my life!

Within 10 minutes of entering the station, we received a call (run). We were tones for a possible house fire. My mind was racing (for reasons yet divulged) . What would I do? How could I focus on the task at hand when my mind was somewhere so far away? Was I placing my members in danger? Could I make the right decisions? Would I do the right thing?

Luckily, the house was not on fire. The basement had flooded due to the rain and snow, The occupant had several cans of gasoline (and other flammable liquids) stored down there which had overturned due to the high water. The home had gas hot water and heat but luckily, the water level had snuffed out the pilot lights. We secured the utilities, pumped the water and vented the home/ It was an otherwise “routine” run but my mind was in a million places. It could have gone so bad so quickly.

We continued to run that day. One call after another. We caught a 5 vehicle accident involving an ambulance (with a patient on board)  form a neighboring agency  and ended the night with a 2nd alarm at a 1st due 9 story apartment complex. My nerves were shaken to say the least. It wasn’t an easy tour.

How do I talk about it? Who do I tell?

Can I talk to dad about it? About my fears? He retired with 30 years of service and the title of one of the best firefighters on the job. How about my Chief? Which one? Which has REALLY been there? Which would understand? Maybe they’d seize this opportunity to find the reason to get rid of me once and for all? No ….. I couldn’t share any of this with them.

E.A.P (Employee Assistance Program)  …. what do “they” know about what I’ve seen? What I think and / or fear? They aren’t firemen …. they don’t know what we’ve seen …. what we’ve done. I had nowhere to turn. OR SO I THOUGHT.

Brothers and Sisters I’m telling you NOW ….. we DO have somewhere to go … somewhere to turn to … someone who’ll listen. I’m going to start talking about it a lot. I’m going to because I want YOU to know that they are there. THEY …. someone who UNDERSTANDS, and they are there for US!

I’m in a deep, DARK place in my life but I also know that I will pull through. I KNOW I WILL because of the support I have received … the support WE have.

There’s NO SHAME in it. TALK ….. SHARE YOUR FEELINGS. Your pain, sorrow, hurt and even joy. SHARE IT. …. LET IT OUT, it’s therapeutic. TRUST ME.

It doesn’t make us “less” of a fireman … it makes us STRONGER. It makes us BETTER!

I’m getting there … little by little. There’s not a day goes by that I don’t think about or miss Jack.  He was my little brother … I’m supposed to think about him. I was here to take care of him. I may have failed.

I watched the Super Bowl last night … I don’t watch football …. Jackson did. I pulled for the Ravens. They were the “home” team and from what I can tell, the “underdogs” as well. That sums us up  ….(me…you… Jackson) the home team AND the underdogs.

Well, we won. We won yet I’m still here. I’m still lost.

I’ll keep searching till I find what it is I’m looking for. Maybe one day, I’ll share it with you … I’m not ready yet. I’ll keep looking. Digging, scratching. I may never find it but I’ll look. My dad and mom found it …. it came to them … I should be so lucky.

Until then, I’ve realized  that I have chosen to live. I had to. There’s no life without it and unlike Jackson, I realize how many people love, think about and depend on me. I’m in it for the long haul. The Paul Harvey commercial reminded me of that …. we ( I ) have a purpose….

The support I’ve received through this trying time has been overwhelming. The phone calls, e-mails, messages etc. The comments and concern about me and my entire family. What really got me was when they asked about the Buckaroo. How he was doing. Well, the honest answer is that I haven’t been here for him. We haven’t explained whats going on to him. All he knows is that his uncle Jackson is gone to be with Jesus and that his Paw-Paw isn’t around much anymore. It has to be confusing.

That’s another reason to get back into shape. So that my family can get back to “normal” as well. Of course, when I say “my family” I mean you as well. I sold most of my cattle. When I say most, I mean that I still own those that nobody else would buy … my long horns.

That means that the Buckaroo and I still have some obligations to fulfill.  Our animals come first. So for all of you asking ….. THANKS.  It hasn’t been the best of circumstances for him but he’s doing OK. I haven’t been “there” for him but I will be. Here’s a short video of us heading out to feed / water yesterday. I hope you enjoy it.

My other family …. I’ll be reaching back to them as well. Closer to my firehouse family … to the Brotherhood and to my wife and children. It’s ok to need and want to lean on each other in times like these. I know none of you will let me slip … much less fall.

Also please don’t forget to reach out if and when you need someone to talk to, WE ALL DO. Once again I’ll add some links that have been helpful for me … USE THEM.

Grief.com,   Recover from Grief.com The Sweeney Alliance,Firefighter Behavioral Health AllianceNorth American Firefighter Veteran Network

I’m back on duty tomorrow and will update ya as soon as possible …. THANKS again for the support!!!

Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

 

 

Barefooted … for now

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I’ve been attempting another (this) post for several days now. I’ve written several and sent em to the recycle bin instead of posting. I didn’t want to seem (or come across) as angry and I felt like they did. So, like everything else here lately, I’ll try it again. My emotions lately are across the board.

Despite the overwhelming support I received following my last post (“A Firefighter’s Boots”), I was NOT able to return to duty and put mine (my boots) back on. It wasn’t because I didn’t want to … I DID … more than anything, and you folks were a HUGE part of the reason why.

The comments, e-mails, Face Book messages and phone calls were all nothing short of amazing! Then a good friend and brother Firefighter, Nate Camfiord; posted a picture of some bunker boots with a simple message … “for a friend”. Talk about “Honor”, “Pride” and “Respect” … Nate reeks of it.

He (Nate) then called Rhett and told him what he had posted and why. The two got their heads together and the next thing you know, hundreds of pictures of “Firefighter’s boots” were being posted and sent in! They came from EVERYWHERE…. it was an AWESOME display of support! I was humbled and brought to tears.

Some of the pictures had messages attached. Each touched me. Some were heart breaking yet healing at the same time. All were emotional, heart felt, honest and motivational. They all said, in one way or another; for me to put my boots back on and that each of you were not only willing to, but “THERE” to help me with the “fit”.

I had no idea! I knew the Brotherhood existed, I just didn’t know it did to this extent. I also figured out that all of you were grieving “for” and “with” me as well. I know that you all felt my pain…. I had hoped to spare ya from it. That was selfish of me.

I later learned that part of the healing process needed to be a sharing of that pain and grief and, that I have a huge family to do that with. We all do the same thing … we help others, even at our own sacrifice. You wanted to help me. To be beside me. To comfort me and share in my grief.  My being there would allow us all to move forward … to begin the healing process.

I wanted back in those boots this past Sunday. I wasn’t sure how it would turn out but I was going to put them on. I wanted back in them for me and for you. I needed it…. we all did.

Obviously, it didn’t happen. I did however get by the station (and Station #5) for a visit that morning … I was glad I did. The circumstances surrounding why I didn’t work were beyond my control and I hope you folks weren’t disappointed. I hope I didn’t let you down.

We only get a couple days “funeral leave” in our system (one of which has to be the day of Last Rites) so I’ve had to take several days of “sick leave” since Jack’s death. I’m on the “old leave plan” so it’s no big deal for me. It doesn’t affect my Vacation or Holidays, I have plenty of it and, it will renew in July. I’ve earned it.

The problem I encountered was in our S.O.P’s (Standard Operating Procedures). Since I have taken more than 3 consecutive days “sick”, I need a doctor’s note before I can return to duty. One of our Deputy Chiefs reminded me of the policy when he called to “check on me” Friday evening and it’s a good thing he did (remind me that is). Can you imagine the turmoil it would have caused if I had shown up for duty without a permission slip doctors note?

It may have actually been for the best… I may have tried to come back too fast / soon. I’ve had a difficult week (emotional wise) and think that the couple extra days off couldn’t have hurt. They helped and the Chief of Department has told me to take all the time I need. I’ll get there…. I know it. With a support group like you, how could I not?

I’ll get a doctor’s note, even if I have to get Dr. Seuss himself to write one (he is a close personal friend and the only Doctor I REALLY trust you know…lol). My plan now is to return to duty on Tuesday the 29th or Thursday the 31st. Meanwhile, I’m going to start easing my way back to normal … my “new normal” anyway.

Zach Green and my MN8 FoxFire family will be in Daytona Beach Fla this week for the 2013 Fire-Rescue East convention … I’m going with them. Actually, I’m going to meet them there. Dad will be there too. They will be in booth #720 …. stop by and say hello.

A change of scenery, getting away (even if just for a couple of days) may be just what I need. It will also be a good opportunity to “reconnect”. I’ll be surrounded by firefighters, friends and family. It will be like easing back into the firehouse, only in a convention type setting.

It’s going to be difficult for me. I remain very emotional and it shows … that’s ok. I’m gonna cry in front of a lot of people this weekend. That’s ok too. I’ve learned that over these past 3 weeks. We’re HUMAN … I’m human. It’s what actually makes us good firemen. I’m going to start talking and “sharing” a lot… about opening up…. about talking (yea… to real live, other people). Sharing our stories, our feelings, our emotions. I’m going to tell ya how it’s ok to use E.A.P (Employee Assistance Programs), counselors and psychologists. IT WORKED FOR ME. If I can do it, anyone can.

I’m not “healed”. I’m not “over it” and I’m not “ok” BUT … I know that I will be. I know that I’ll learn to deal with and live with this pain… with this part of me that’s now missing.

If you’re in or going to be in Daytona for the show, look me up … I could use the company. Leave a comment here, message me on Face Book, hit up Rhett (Fire Critic) or just stop by booth #720 … Zach and Kelly will know where to find me. Heck, I may even put my boots back on while down there and give ya a free demo of FoxFire.

I’ll check back in from sunny Daytona (as soon as I stop and buy a new speedo). I just wanted to let you know (warn ya) that I’m on my way.  THANKS AGAIN for all of and the continued  SUPPORT…. I LOVE YOU GUYS!

Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

A firefighter’s boots

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Our boots are one of the seemingly simplest tools we have as firefighters yet they each have a story to tell.

Maybe you have to be a firefighter to understand but for most of us on the job, we can look at a brother or sisters boots (and how they wear them) and learn so much about the person wearing them.

Shined or scuffed. Tall or short. Laces or zippers. Station wear or structural.  By the rig or inside the cab. Bunkers over or separated from our pants.  By the bed at night or out in the bay. We depend on our boots… they get us to the job and have been there for every one … good and bad.

I’ve been in a dark place following my brother’s death two weeks ago and my boots continue to consume my thoughts. You can tell by just the few examples I gave above that we have many options (or choices) when it comes to our boots. One of the biggest however is the one I didn’t mention and the same one I’m facing now … knowing when (and how) to put them back on or to just hang them up.

I’ve been open and emotional here on the site before but not to the extent that I was in my previous post (or at least I don’t think so). The response was very positive and to be honest, it was also very therapeutic for me so I think I’ll try it again.

I’ve never been in this place (or any like it) before and I don’t like it. I can’t figure it out or “fix it” quickly and it’s not a position I’m used to or comfortable with. I’m still dazed and feel lost. I can’t sleep, keep food down and even find it difficult to draw a full breath. I get out of bed every day feeling as if I’ve been kicked in the gut. I’ve walked a million miles these past two weeks searching for answers or some sort of closure or peace but even these boots can’t get me far enough from the pain for me to function as I should.

Some of my friends are telling me to get back to work … get back to a “routine” and whats “normal”. I don’t know if I’m ready for that yet or if I’ll ever be. It used to be that I had a farming and firehouse life. Last week, I sold all my cattle and I haven’t been to the firehouse since Jack’s death.  For the first time in my career, I’m nervous scared to go to work. I’m scared of what I’ll have to face and question my courage or ability to push through it.

I worry about facing the guys. I know this sounds “petty” but it bothers me. What will I say to Phil or Lynn when I walk in the door? What will they say to me? I know that right now, I’d break down in tears and I don’t want to do that … not at the station. Maybe they will break down? I don’t want that either.

They have to be wondering what to say to me. What can they say? Nothing they come up with will make it any easier for me (although appreciated). I’ll see their pain in knowing that I’m still hurting. I do and will know that they want to and are willing to share in that pain but still cant stand the thought of placing that burden on them.

Then, the seven o’clock bell will hit and the other members will emerge from the bunk room and we’ll have to relive the situation all over again. The event will unfold time and time again throughout the day as we converge with other companies. Maybe there wont be any conversation … just that awkward silence because nobody knows what to say.

I’ll be the guy who stops all conversation by simply entering the room. My presence will affect our members, their mental status and maybe even their ability to perform their duties because of it. I don’t want to be “that guy” either.

I also worry about the incidents that I’ll respond to and if I’ll be able to function after arriving. I’ve NEVER doubted my ability to do the job … until now. I’m not sure how I’ll react on certain types of incidents. More specifically, I worry about running suicides,  ”Code Blues” (CPR),  and any other type of fatality we may encounter. What if I “break down” while on the scene? In someone’s home… in front of their family. We are there to assist with their crisis, not bring more into it.

I’ve seen death throughout my career … a lot of it. I’ve seen it from new borns to elderly and from many mechanisms. As firefighters, we’ve all seen things that nobody should have to. I know that there is no “illusion” to death. It’s (their) face(s) has continued to visit (haunt) me over the years. I’ve always been able to move it “somewhere” in the back of my mind, to “file it away” and move forward … even when they hit “close to home”. This is different.

When our girls were home, Donna; (my wife) always knew when I had run an incident involving a child. We’ve never talked about them but she’d get a call at whatever time in the late night / early morning. I’d have her go to our girls bedroom, look in on them and tell me they were ok. I’d have her do it while I was on the phone. I heard it, I knew that they were ok and that I could move on through the rest of the tour. This time, there’s nobody to call and it’s not ok.

Of everything I’ve experienced and witnessed throughout my life and career, NOTHING can compare to what I had to do on December 30th. This was more than “close to home” … this WAS HOME. We were at Dad’s house and that was Jackson laying in front of me. JACKSON! I don’t want to see anymore.

Maybe my “file cabinet” is full. Maybe this file is simply too big to fit inside. Either way, I’m having trouble putting this one away. Maybe I don’t want to. How can I put Jack into “that” file cabinet anyway? Into “that” place in my mind? I know I’ve  got to figure it out because I can’t keep going on like this. I need and want for my mind to slow down. For me to be able to focus and move forward.

I know that part of the reason that I’m in the condition I am is because I haven’t found what I’m looking for yet. What I’m “searching” for. I know what it is … it’s very specific and I’m not sure it will happen. I want it to … I need it to. I’m not ready to share it with all of you yet but I know that if I find it … if I get this answer, I can go on.

I’ll say here that I’ve had a ton of support (my entire family has). The e-mails, comments etc have been heart felt and therapeutic in themselves. THANK YOU … THANK YOU …THANK YOU! I’ve even had several therapists and professional counselors reach out…. everyday they’ve helped me. I’ll include some links at the bottom once again. If you haven’t already … CHECK THEM OUT. When you go to the Sweeneyalliance, be sure to sign up for their newsletter “Grieving Behind the Badge” .

So, once again; writing this has helped and I’m thankful to have this outlet. My Chief (and Department) has been VERY understanding and supportive. He’s told me to take as much time as I need knowing that neither of us could know how long that may be. Well, after writing this; I think it’s time to try. I think I’ll return to duty on Sunday and see if I can get back into my boots. Get back into my boots and “do work”. To see if I can still make a difference … hopefully, a positive one.

Willie

 

Wytheville finds some water!

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Photo by Jeffery Simmons

I don’t have many details yet but, apparently; the Wytheville Fire Department and Chief Ron King have abandoned their recently discovered “new firefighting technique” and resorted to fighting fire like the rest of America … by putting water on the fire.

The Wytheville Fire Department, along with the Rural Retreat Volunteer Fire Department responded to a house fire on West Lee Highway on Thursday December 27, 2012.

Chief King, and the Wytheville Department made the local news  back in November when he opted to conduct salvage operations vs extinguishing a fire in the Crocketts Cove section of Wythe County, Va. Chief King took full credit for this “new technique” saying that he had never studied the technique in his “thousands and thousands of hours of training”. He also said, “we plan on using it again”. Find the entire article in a previous post below…

READ “New Firefighting technique developed in Wytheville, Va?”

Photo by Jeffery Simmons

My post on the issue resulted in several comments and e-mails (use the link above for that post).

My favorite comment was posted to my Face Book Fan Page by Jacob. He never came right out and asked but I think he wanted to marry me. Yea… out of the blue, this kid wanted my address so he could send me some rope and a vibrator! Yea … a vibrator LMAO! Read that post below.

Read that post by clicking HERE

 Well, I never received the vibrator or the rope and, judging by the pictures of the most recent fire, Chief King has changed his mind as well. At least they are flowing water and the local news even said they were using an elevated master stream.

Full story from Tricities.com found HERE

I raised several valid questions out of the previous Wytheville issues and have yet to receive a valid response / argument. I even requested the audio files of the fire ground audio from the Crocketts Cove fire through the Freedom of Information Act and never received them.

I gave them the benifit of the doubt thinking that maybe they didn’t know what the Freedom of Information Act was. With that in mind, I posted a portion of the Act for them.

“Any public body that is subject to this chapter and that is the custodian of the requested records shall promptly, but in all cases within five working days of receiving a request, provide the requested records to the requester or make one of the following responses in writing:”

It also says  “Failure to respond to a request for records shall be deemed a denial of the request and shall constitute a violation of this chapter”

I guess I should have also included portions of the Act that discuss the violations or failure to disclose requested information.

“ 2.2-3713 for a violation of § 2.2-3704, 2.2-3705.1 through 2.2-3705.8, 2.2-3706, 2.2-3707, 2.2- 3708, 2.2-3708.1, 2.2-3710, 2.2-3711 or 2.2-3712, the court, if it finds that a violation was willfully and knowingly made, shall impose upon such officer, employee, or member in his individual capacity, whether a writ of mandamus or injunctive relief is awarded or not, a civil penalty of not less than $500 nor more than $2,000, which amount shall be paid into the State Literary Fund. For a second or subsequent violation, such civil penalty shall be not less than $2,000 nor more than $5,000.”

More and more details are being brought to my attention every day. The Virginia Department of Fire Programs was apparently brought in several years back to preform a “study” of Wytheville’s operations. Obviously, the findings from that study have been totally ignored.

It also seems that there could be some “conflicts of interest” involved with the person whom I requested the information from in the first place (involving an ex-wife and her current relationship).

It now seems the problems in Wytheville reach deeper than first suspected. Again I’ll say that I can’t understand why the Board of Supervisors accepts this liability. I’ll keep ya posted as more details surface.

So, I trust and hope you all had a VERY Merry Christmas and I wish you all a prosperous,  healthy and SAFE New Year.

My Christmas couldn’t have been better. It was spent surrounded by family and friends and I even managed to get a few awesome gifts.

Pictured right is the gift Rhett (FireCritic.com) gave me. It’s a custom leather radio strap made by Wolfpak Leather Works .

This strap is AWESOME. The detail and craftsmanship are second to none. It not only has my name on it, it also includes the Buckaroo and Ironfiremen.com THANKS Brothers!

I still haven’t got a good picture of it yet but, I had Rhett a custom apron made.

I have to admit that it too was a pretty awesome gift.

It’s made of PBI (just like our turnout gear) has striping, pockets d-ring snaps and his name. He LOVED it.

The apron was made by our good friends over at Blue Ridge Rescue Suppliers .

We’ve already received several comments and e-mails asking where the aprons can be purchased. So far, this is a “one of” but if they receive enough interest, more will be made. Use the link above ( or just CLICK HERE )to contact Blue Ridge Rescue Suppliers and inquire about the aprons. Actually, check them out for any and all of your equipment needs. Call or e-mail and be sure to tell em we sent ya!

Tonight, I’m covering a shift for Rhett.

I’m working at Station #3-A. His Captain, Mac Craft; is on duty and we decided he’d make the better driver / operator so I’m riding the seat and Mac is driving.

It’s been a while since I’ve been behind the wheel so I’m sure everyone is safer this way….LOL

Thanks to Captain Mac for letting me have his seat today.

Rhett’s down in Nashville with family but will be home in time for the New Year. 2013 is shaping up to be our busiest year yet and I’m sure it will also be our best!

Be sure to keep checking back for our 2012 Year in Review posts …. if you haven’t been following along, you’ll never believe where we’ve been and what we’ve gotten ourselves into!

Do you guys remember little Hunter Moseley?

I first introduced you to him through a post back in November (linked below)

Read “PRIDE … Going the extra mile and making a kid smile”

Well since that post, Hunter has made several new friends and had some great experiences.

He now has “Team Hunter” shirts and his own Face Book Fan Page. Take a moment to visit and “LIKE” Hunters page … your support makes a difference for him and his family!

Visit and “Like” Team Hunter on Face Book HERE

My regular shift has me back Monday, Wednesday and Friday this week. I’ll check back in as soon as possible. Until I do, stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

The Newtown, Connecticut murders and Firefighter Stress

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I haven’t talked about the murders here on IronFiremen.com yet. Like many, I’m still trying to understand this horrific event. I’m not even sure what to say yet … what can you say?

I’ve watched a lot of the news and read several of the articles / stories. I was glad to see that tonight, at least some of the media got it right. Tonight, they quit interviewing kids and parents. They quit with the unbearable questions.

For what I’m sure will be a short lived period, they turned the cameras off the survivors / mourners and listed the names of those murdered.

To me, this should have been done much earlier (with respect to the families etc). I say that because the name of their murderer was up quickly. Every station had it up in bold. His name and picture.

I could care less about him. He’s not important to me. We will never know his motive or reasoning and there’s no reason to speculate. We can’t ask or beat it out of him. He took the cowards way out and died a much too easy death.

Here’s the thing … he will be remembered. His name and face was imprinted into our heads before we knew the victims. It’s still happening. They (mainstream media) are already posting his picture and making comparisons with other recent mass murderers ( Virginia Tech, Denver etc). His name could (and likely will) become more recognizable than his victims and that’s sad.

THAT’S WHO WE SHOULD BE REMEMBERING … THE VICTIMS.

Here are the names (and ages) of those we should remember. Don’t forget or lose them in the ensuing media circus ….

Mary Sherlach, 56; Dawn Lafferty Hochsprung, 47; Lauren Rousseau, 30; Victoria Soto, 27; Olivia Engel, 6; Emilie Parker, 6; Rachel Davino, 29; Anne Marie Murphy, 25; Charlotte Bacon, 6; Daniel Barden, 7; Josephine Gay, 7; Ana Marquez-Greene, 6; Dylan Hockley, 6; Madeleine Hsu, 6; Catherine Hubbard, 6; Chase Kowalski, 7; Jesse Lewis, 6; James Mattioli, 6; Grace McDonnell, 7; Anne Marie Murphy, 52; Jack Pinto, 6; Noah Pozner, 6; Caroline Previdi, 6; Jessica Rekos, 6; Avielle Richman, 6; Benjamin Wheeler, 6; Allison Wyatt, 6.

I also hope the first responders are not lost or forgotten in the media’s search for “who” and “why”.

The Police, Fire and Rescue members who responded to the scene.

I don’t even want to imagine what they encountered. I can’t. Dave Statter had Police and Fire radio traffic up early. I’ll add the link …

 Sandy Hook radio traffic HERE

I’m certain their lives will be changed forever. I’ve thought of their pain everyday since the shootings.

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What I haven’t seen or heard about yet is how those Brothers and Sisters are holding up.

I’m sure there are Counseling Units / Services on site and that they will remain for some time. I’m not sure it will be enough.

Again I’ll say that this was a life altering event / incident.

From what I can tell, Newtown is a relatively “small” town / community. It is the 5th largest “Town” in Connecticut at only 60.38 sq miles.

Newtown Connecticut web site HERE 

Sandy Hook is a Borough within Newtown. It was the Sandy Hook Fire Station that was shown so much in the media coverage.

Early in the incident, the station was used as a staging / assembling area. I would imagine that like with most small town Departments, the station was a familiar, comforting place for the community.

Sandy Hook has 2 Stations, 8 pieces and over 60 members. I haven’t heard how many member’s children attended the elementary school if any.

Sandy Hook Vol. Fire & Rescue Co. web site

Please keep these Brothers and Sisters in your thoughts and prayers as well. I would imagine that the population of Sandy Hook and Newtown has tripled with the sudden influx of media etc. That means that the possibility exists for the call volume of Fire, Rescue and Police to increase as well. They could be busier now than ever before and at a time when they can least afford it.

While I’m on the subject, let me say that this season (Thanksgiving / Christmas) is typically the worst for us on the job.

For whatever reason, we seem to see a lot of fire in these months and we tend to see an increase in suicides as well.

It’s supposed to be a time for family. A time of peace and joy but that’s not always the reality we see out here in the streets.

We never get called out because something “good” is happening but, at this time of year; it’s maybe a little more difficult see and deal with.

FireChief.com is reporting that Firefighting is the second most stressful job in the Nation and I think this is our most stressful season.

READ Firefighting the Second-Most Stressful Job in the Nation, White Paper Reports 

As Company Officers, it’s our responsibility to take care of our members and that includes AFTER the call. Make sure you understand and recognize the signs of stress. Also make sure your members know that they have a place to “go” … someone to confide in and “talk” to.

Here are some links that may be helpful ….

Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

 

Fire Department History … it’s where we came from

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I mentioned just the other day how Rhett and I talk a lot about Brotherhood. In our minds, it’s the foundation of the fire service.  Of course you can’t talk about Brotherhood without mentioning  TraditionPride, Honor, and Respect … to us, they go hand in hand.

It’s our HISTORY …. it’s why we’re here. Think about it … you wanted to become a firefighter for a reason. You seen or learned of something that you wanted to become a part of, or emulate. What you seen was built by other men … by the ones who came before us … the men from the days of Wooden Ladders and Iron Firemen!

It’s our job to continue building upon what they started and to never forget where it (or we) came from. The sacrifices made and lessons learned along the way. The names, their faces and all those stories in between that were told on the back step or around the kitchen table. They define us …it’s who we are.

How much do you know about the history of your Department? Do you have someone documenting or recording your history? Someone who archives news articles? A Department photographer?

We did at one time. His name was Maurice Wiseman. Now deceased, Captain Wiseman took it upon himself to document the history of the Roanoke Fire Department where he served for over 35 years.

Captain Wiseman collected every newspaper clipping that was fire related (or that mentioned the Roanoke Fire Department) from the early 1960′s until the mid-90′s.

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He also documented our members.

Even after his retirement (March 2, 1985) he continued to visit the stations to photograph members.

Believe it or not, that’s me back in July of 1991. Captain Wiseman took the photo and archived it in what we now know as the Maurice Wiseman Project.

View part of the project on Face Book by clicking HERE .

 After Captain Wiseman passed away, his family turned all of his collection over to The Roanoke Firefighter’s Association IAFF Local-1132. It was there that Rhett stumbled onto the collection.

Rhett was not a Roanoke native. Unlike many of us who were 2nd or 3rd generation firefighters that grew up around Roanoke’s firehouses, Rhett had no prior connection to the RFD.

That didn’t matter because Rhett “gets it”. He understands what it means to be a firefighter. He understands that it’s more than a uniform. More than running the calls. Rhett “bought in” to the Roanoke Fire Department (and the Fire Service as a whole) and he paid with sweat equity.

Rhett took over Captain Wiseman’s collection and created the Maurice Wiseman Project. He sat out to continue the work Captain Wiseman started.

He ended up even writing a book on our History…. Firefighting in Roanoke (use this link to purchase a copy for under $20 The picture right is the cover).

The book covers Roanoke firefighters from the organization of the first volunteer companies through the progression of a fully paid Department and the implementation of a 3rd platoon.

In his own way, Rhett continued to document the Department through a blog. .. RoanokeFire.com. Although he included a lot of personal opinion etc, he also captured a lot of our history. Sadly, some members became upset over some of his postings and forced him to abandon his efforts.

In the video below, Rhett was interviewed about his book, Firefighting in Roanoke.

We had another member who captured some good photos throughout the years. Lt Mike Overacker is now retired but until recently, could usually be found on the scene of fires snapping pictures. Mike often times focused on the members rather than the fire and posted them to his site, Roanokefirefighters.com. Because of a conceived lack of support etc, Mike to has abandoned his efforts and even taken down the site.

The loss of both these sites is a shame …. so much of our history will now be lost.

Follow Ironfiremen.com on Face Book. Click HERE and “Like”

I bring up all this talk of “history” for a reason. I recently got a refreshing reminder of just how important it is to us. You see, we’ve kind of gotten our little “Rookie Randy” interested in fire service history, antiques etc. He takes a lot of PRIDE in working for our Department and RESPECTS what the members before us have created.

He texted me the other day asking if I knew a “D. S. Wanson”. I didn’t. I thought maybe it could be one of the new kids but I wasn’t sure.

I texted him back asking why he wanted to know. He told me that he had found a Roanoke Fire Department belt buckle with that name engraved on it.

I asked if he was sure it was from the Roanoke Fire Department and he said yes. Then it hit me … it wasn’t “D.S. Wanson”, it was “D. Swanson”!

“UNCLE SWANSON” …. my dad’s first and long time Captain! I can’t tell ya how many memories I have of Swanson. As kids, my brother and I spent as much time as possible with dad, uncle Swanson and the men of Station #6. We spent just as much time around him when they were off duty … hell … we called him “uncle”.

Swanson was “old school”. He was one of em I think of when talking about the days of “Wooden Ladders and Iron Firemen”.

He served 43 years in the Roanoke Fire Department (1948-1991). When he retired, he had served the 2nd longest career behind Captain Givens. Today, I believe he’s 3rd because of now deceased Battalion Chief Bobbie Slayton’s tenure.

They weren’t easy years either … although he retired from Station #13 (which was considered a “slow” station at the time), he spent most of his career at the busiest downtown stations (#1 and #6).

Well obviously, I told Randy to buy it. He did. He brought the buckle in and I told him the story of who it belonged to. You could see the excitement in his face.

We did some digging and come to find out, another retired Captain actually made the buckle.

Apparently, Captain Mills (aka “Big Mills” due to the size of his hands) made several hose picks and buckles just like this one for the members back then.

I also have one of the hose picks he made.

I love to hear the stories of how the men made a lot of the tools they used back then.

Made as in “hand made”. There was a work bench and vice in every station and most times both were surrounded by the members on duty. Fixing this or building that. If they didn’t have it, they made it. If they broke it, they fixed it.

Well anyway, after hearing the story of the buckles origin, Randy wouldn’t let me pay for it. I thought “no big deal” … he’s probably planning to just give it to me … right? WRONG.

He knows me well enough to know what I was planning to do with it and he had the same idea … he wanted my dad to have it. HOW AWESOME IS THAT?!?

With just a little over a year on the job, Randy is already showing just how much he understands Pride, Honor, Tradition and Respect.

A one year man giving back to a 30 year man. A piece of history … Fire Department history as well as Dad’s history.

That’s just another small part of what the Brotherhood is all about and Randy “gets it”. I was humbled to have been witness. Dad was honored.

I hope this can and will be an example for all you young members out there. Don’t wait. It’s never too early to get involved with your Department’s History, Traditions etc. Remember the men who came before you and helped create the job you so dearly wanted. Tell the stories …document and  share them. Most importantly, never miss an opportunity to listen to those of your fellow Brothers and Sisters … help keep our history alive ..after all, we’re now part of it!

Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

Fire truck roll over, working fire, a strange rescue, some rope and a vibrator

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Where else, other than Ironfiremen.com can you find a title like that? LMAO Ok, first off, let me update ya on the roll over accident involving Bedford Engine 1 yesterday. The accident happened as the Engine was responding to a brush fire on Peaks Road. There were 4 members on board and all were transported to local hospitals (at least 1 was air lifted). Initial reports were of 2 members having  serious injuries. The good news is that none of the injuries sustained were serious and all 4 members were released from the hospital by late yesterday evening. Bedford’s Engine 1 is a 2007 Seagrave Marauder II.  Rhett broke the story yesterday over on FireCritic.com  you can read his post HERE . Read some local news coverage HERE and HERE.

Find Bedford Fire Department’s Web Page HERE or on Face Book HERE

Yesterday was a busy day in “The Noke” as well.

This picture is from Ladder 7 as they are responding in with smoke showing.

The fire was located in the 2500 block of Johnson Ave.

It was actually a storage building / warehouse for CMC Supply (plumbing supplies).

Members arrived to find heavy fire and smoke conditions. Damages are estimated at $300,000.00 and was the result of arson.

This is not the first time Roanoke’s bravest have battled a fire at CMC.

Back in the mid to early 90′s it took multiple alarms and a Department call back to control a blaze at this same location.

The buildings were (and are) full of plumbing supplies… PVC’s, plastics etc.

Yesterday’s fire occurred on B-shift and took the Brothers and Sisters only a few hours to control.

Members broke shift and remained on scene for days following the fire back in the 90′s.

No injuries were reported and by all appearances, the Brothers and Sisters of B-Shift put in some solid work.

One juvenile has been charge with arson while charges are pending on two others.

Find local news coverage HERE

 (more pictures in the link above)

For some odd reason, it seems as if arson is on the rise in Roanoke lately.

Earlier in the week, Roanoke Police arrested a man for  ransacking a local Church. 21 year old Nathaniel Alan Lutz has been charged with breaking and entering as well as arson. It’s reported that several items inside had been set on fire. Church members became aware of the break in the following morning and called police. The fires had apparently burned themselves out and the Fire Department did not respond. Read some local coverage HERE .

Here’s a pretty cool video for all our animal lovers out there ( Smurf should REALLY love this one). One of my readers, Pat sent it in for us to take a look at. The video was loaded to YouTube by Jack Hillmann. His description says that while driving, he hit 2 falcons. One was killed and the other trapped under his vehicle. Apparently, Jack stopped at a local firehouse for assistance. I can see “Moline Fire Department” on the side of the rig and will assume it’s Moline IL. If you guys know who these Brothers are, please let me know so I can give them credit. I’m sure their efforts made a lasting and positive impression on Mr Hillmann … a positive public image. WELL DONE Brothers!

Speaking of positive publicity, my last post, “Pride .. Going the extra mile and making a kid smile” has received a fair amount of attention.

Apparently, you guys jumped into action and the cards etc have been rolling in to make little Nathan Norman’s Christmas wish come true.

Nathan is 6yrs old and lives in Rustburg, Va. He is battling terminal cancer and had a special request / wish for Christmas. He’s a huge fan of Firefighters, Police, EMS, and Hospital workers. He wanted (hoped) to receive some Christmas cards / pictures from those of us serving in those positions. Rhett and I sent a shirt, Challenge Coin and card …. apparently a lot of you did as well!  THANKS!  Here’s a post / update his mom recently posted to Face Book …

“We want to once again just thank everyone for your love and support!!!!! There have been so many cards/gifts/emails/visits from police, fire, ems, border patrol, secret service, etc from all over the country. The entire family is so grateful and humbled by the response of everyone. Just to update: Nathan is still on chemotherapy for hopefully up to 18 months. He is doing well on the chemo and as of last month the tumors were stable (cancer was there just not growing). He is still fighting strong while we pray for a cure!”

Follow Nathan’s Christmas: The Page on Face Book. Click HERE

Another previous post of mine has drawn a lot of attention as well. If you missed “New Firefighting technique developed in Wytheville, Va?” you need to take a minute and read it.  Be sure to also read the article from SW Va Today as well …. you’ll LOVE the quotes from Chief King and it’s also what prompted me to write the post (find that article HERE). I did a follow up on the original post and that article can be found HERE .  I did the follow up because a few comments I had been receiving. They were obviously from people within or close to the Wytheville Fire Department (or their Auxiliary) and were attempting to defend Chief King and the actions of the WFD.

What still amazes me is that in all of their comments, nobody has offered a rebuttal. They simply continue to question my training, credentials, character and more (including my mustache). They rant about how my information / facts are incorrect yet they fail to offer “their side” of the story.

They still fail to see the seriousness of the issues that were raised and the effects they could have on their Department and community … everything from liability to insurance, ISO ratings and more. Their silence  and/or lack of a rebuttal also somewhat implies my information is correct. I also trust my sources to be accurate (one of which being the SW Va Today article where Chief King was quoted). I have spoken directly to at least one of their members over the phone. I even requested a transcript (and/or audio recording) of the incident from their 911 center under the Virginia Freedom Of Information Act . I made the request through Mr Davidson who is listed as “Emergency Mangager/911 Coordinator/Haz-Mat Coordinator” on the County’s web site under the Department of Emergency Management. I believe he is also a member of the Wytheville Fire Department.

My request was made November 21st and on the 26th Mr Davidson responded saying that the incident in question was actually a “Town” call and that he had forwarded the request to the necessary people (their PIO, Chief Dispatcher and Director of Public Safety for the Town). I haven’t received a response from either of these folks as of this post. I added a link to the FOIA a few paragraphs above. To save you the hassle of reading it all, page 5 is where it talks about requesting information and the time frame a Public Body has to respond to a request. Here’s an excerpt .. “Any public body that is subject to this chapter and that is the custodian of the requested records shall promptly, but in all cases within five working days of receiving a request, provide the requested records to the requester or make one of the following responses in writing:” It also says  “Failure to respond to a request for records shall be deemed a denial of the request and shall constitute a violation of this chapter”.

I mentioned in my update post that the Wythe County Board of Supervisors has earned faith in being able to make the right vs popular decision on issues such as this. I maintain that faith and hope they work quickly to resolve some of these issues before someone gets seriously injured (or worse). Ok, so back to the comments. I’ve actually stopped replying to many of them. Trying to debate the issues with some of these folks is just a wast of time. It’s like  playing cards with my brothers kids or something. Some of them are quite interesting though … like this one posted to my Face Book page from “Jacob” (I’ll need to censor some of it …you’ll understand)

“Wow I am very sorry to say that all your info on Wytheville FD is false. I have 2 presents for you so if you could send me your address you will kindly recieve a rope and a vibrator. GO F**K YOURSELF AND HANG YOUR ASS WHEN DONE. Ron King is a great man and the 2 houses that are now a loss is not his fault. One was a fully involved structure fire when they arrived NOT “room and contents fire” like you mentioned. I do not hear the family complaining about the house being gone to the county or even the town. The fd did what they needed to do and thats it. Chief King was smart not to send them inside with hoses and yes you are correct about ONE thing. they used small diameter hoses….. DUH did you really think they were going to drag the 5″ out and carry it into the house. Your eyes must be in your mouth and that mustache is affecting your vision. You also said that you have not heard from the 911 dispatchers or the department.. HMMMMM So where are you getting your information on repsonse time and the fact that they had to call for a tanker. Maybe you should get all your facts together before you start running your damn mouth. OR in this case your fingers. If you are going to bash a fd do it to one that actually has problems like ******* Springs FD in NC or ******* cnty FDs since they dont let women in the departments and that ******* Springs has someone in the dpt just a year after he sexually assulted a female in training there. You are a disgrace. Iron firemen my ass. You panzy ass looking shit. Remind me to never live in your departments area. It would take you even longer to get to my house fire because you mustache would slow your asses down”

Rope and a vibrator?? …. WOW! This guy is going all out. He must be rich!

I wonder how he knows about my back ache? I’ve always heard that vibrators can do wonders for a sore back but I’ve never tried one.

I’m so excited in anticipation of these gifts that I researched them on the internet… who knew there were so many options? Different colors even! Decisions …decisions!

I actually though they were called massagers and I would have never guessed that you don’t have to plug them into an outlet anymore? You gotta love the power of batteries.

Anyway, I just wanted to thank Jacob for his comment (and gift offer). It was obviously very well thought out, to the point and very articulate. By simply pointing out that the family is not complaining about their house burning down, or that the WFD members didn’t stretch 5″ in for an attack, he has already educated me beyond my expectations on the issues surrounding these incidents. Maybe I should offer him a “guest post” here on Ironfiremen.com so others can share in his knowledge and experience. Of course, some of the other comments I’ve received are just as good as Jacob’s so I may have to allow for more than one.

I’ll think that one over and meanwhile, you folks stay SAFE and in house!

Captain Wines

Follow up on Wytheville … Damn that evil Captain Wines and his mustache!

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The comments etc are heating up following my last post surrounding several issues in Wythe County Va. … more specifically, the Wytheville Fire Department.

Some are even trying to make me out as the “bad guy” here.

It’s been suggested that I am untrained and lack the intellect to publish my opinion or comments on Fire/EMS related issues pertaining to communities that I don’t live in (For some unknown reason, apparently; my mustache is also partly to blame …lol).

Read my previous post HERE

There are several issues here and, if you’ll stick with me; we’ll go over them.

First off, this is MY site. The views and opinions published here are MINE. They are in no way connected to, approved by or endorsed by my employer. With that said, I would hope that my 25+ years in Fire/EMS (paid and volunteer) along with my certifications, experience etc does allow for me to form an educated, valid opinion on such issues. This site is merely an outlet for me to voice them.  With all due respect, if you don’t like the stories I publish … don’t read them. I value your opinion and your right to disagree with mine. My comment policy is open as long as it’s kept civil. There are a few words / phrases that will cause your comment not to be “approved” but it has nothing to do with whether or not you agree with or speak positive of me or this site (very few comments have NOT been approved … none pertaining to the Wytheville post).

I’ve been asked … why “pick on” Wytheville, their Fire Department and the Chief?

I’m not “picking on” any of them. I’m publishing information related to issues that I see as problematic for the Fire Service and the communities we serve.

They are not small issues either …. there are some very serious problems exposed in my post and many more questions left unanswered.

I see myself as an advocate for the Fire Service. Like my father, I too am a firefighter and I take a lot of PRIDE in that. I have that same PRIDE for the Brothers and Sisters who came before us … the ones who helped build the American Fire Service and bring us to the level at which we are today … the best in the world! That’s why I titled this site as I did … a reflection back to the days of “Wooden Ladders and Iron Firemen”.

I’m an advocate for firefighters, paid and volunteer alike. “Everyone Goes Home” is not just a “catch phrase” for me. I work extensively with multiple organizations to directly support Departments and their members in need. I am fortunate enough to be able to do so on a level greater than just the community I serve.

I’m also an advocate for those we protect …our citizens … our communities …. large and small. Part of our duty as firefighters is public education and I believe it goes deeper than fire prevention. I think we also need to educate our customers on acceptable levels of service. What SHOULD they expect from their Fire Department? They also need education on what’s needed to meet those standards as far as funding, staffing, training, equipment etc. In some communities, our firefighters need that same education.

So, back to Wytheville. I’ve been posting about Wythe County for some time now. It all started back when I posted about the issues in Botetourt County and convicted felons serving on Fire/EMS agencies. Several months back, Wythe County made a bold and smart decision (in my opinion) in not allowing felons to actively serve. They also faced issues within the Speedwell VFD and were forced to make another bold decision that closed the doors “in the interest of Public Safety”.

The Wythe County Board of Supervisors has earned my faith in being able to make the right vs popular decision. I think they acted appropriately in both of the previous situations. Find Wythe County’s web site HERE.

Now, they’re facing issues within the Wytheville Fire Department and I believe they can all be traced back to poor leadership / management.  These issues are not new, nor were they “made up” by me. Where is the first place to look within a Department when you have issues such as these??? The Chief. In this case, The Wytheville Fire Department’s Chief is Ronnie “Ron” King ( find his Firefighter Nation Bio HERE ) 

I don’t know Chief King personally, nor do I have anything “against” him. This is NOT a personal attack. For all I know, Chief King is a great person and an upstanding member of his community.

I’ll just add that it takes more than that to be the Chief of a Department. Among other things, it takes responsibility. Responsibility for his members and the community they’re sworn to serve and protect.

Most recently, the Wytheville Fire Department has had 2 fires within a week. The fires were just miles apart and approx 5.8 miles from their station. Both homes were a total loss. Now don’t get me wrong … houses burn down … urban and rural.  I’ve made plenty of vacant and  parking lots over my career. What troubles me is some of the details involved in these fires.

A secure, well established water supply seems to be at least one of the issues on both incidents. Was the Wytheville Fire Department not aware that water is an issue in this area? Have they not Pre-Planned this area and made preparations for water? Why are neighboring jurisdictions not automatically dispatched to these areas to assist with tankers? Do they not have automatic and mutual aid agreements within their own County? Is this a Department or County issue?

Are all the tankers in the County outfitted the same? Do they have the same diameter hose, type of couplings etc? Are they compatible with  each other? If not, are the members aware and do they carry the necessary adapters? All this information should be worked out well in advance of a fire.

It’s been said that there were “issues” with a dry hydrant on one of the fires. Was this a training issue, equipment failure or something else? What exactly was that problem and who is working to correct it?

The Chief was quoted in an article talking about the “new technique” he deployed on the Crockett’s Cove Road fire. They basically preformed salvage efforts as opposed to extinguishing the fire (members did enter the Chase Lane fire for interior attack and searches). It made no sense. I’m not alone in my thoughts here … watch the video (just for a good laugh) and then read the article and the comments from SW Va Today in the link below….

Full article from SW Va Today found HERE

(Also read comments from my Face Book pages HERE and HERE)

I’d love to know more details and the thought process here. If the house was too well involved to enter for suppression efforts, then what made it safe enough for salvage operations? I’m pretty well versed on strategy  and tactics yet I still can’t make sense of  this operation ( “new technique”). Maybe instead of cutting the exterior walls, they could have cut a hole in the roof for ventilation? Knocked it down from the exterior before pushing in (transitional attack)? I don’t want to “Monday morning quarterback” this one to death but there just seems to have been so many more options. BASIC options that may have resulted in the saving of more than a few guns, some cloths and an x-box.

I’m sure there were factors on scene that I’m not aware of … after all, I wasn’t there. I’m curious as to the minimum level of training within their Department. How many of their members are “certified” for interior operations? How many of those were on scene of the Crockett’s Cove fire?

How often to they train? What are the topics and who are the instructors? Do they have a Training Chief (Officer)? Do they ever train with their neighboring Departments?

How many members do they have on the roster? How many were on scene and in what time frame? Do they use the Incident Management System and if so, how are they accountable for those members? What is their policy on responding in personal vehicles?

I believe the town staffs a single paid member at the station who acts as a Driver / Operator (engineer). Do they allow this member to leave the station with a staffing of only one?

So many of these questions/factors could have fatal consequences if not answered / addressed.  Do they have the “it will never happen here” mentality? I hope not…. the results can be devastating…FATAL.

Can you imagine the NIOSH report should something ever happen when tactics like these are being deployed on a regular basis? Who would they hold accountable? The County? The Town? The Department? The Chief? The Training Officer? It doesn’t matter because it wont bring back the dead. Death is not an “illusion” … it’s VERY REAL and never pretty.

Read a previous post “The Illusion of Death” click HERE

Again, more and more questions arise. Minimum staffing. Just how effective is a single member responding on a piece of apparatus? Did you watch that video above … YOU NEED TO. Yea.. but our members live close and can get there quick. Really? How quick? How fast will they have to drive to do so? There have been 73 Line of Duty Deaths so far this year. 46.6% of them were volunteers. 15.1% of those were while responding (find the entire report and more details HERE).

Again, I think I’ve raised some legitimate questions and concerns. If the members of the Wytheville Fire Department have become complacent, they need to WAKE UP. Firefighting is NOT a hobby! Maybe the residents of Wythe County don’t expect more .. if they don’t, they’re being cheated and the Wytheville Fire Department is doing their community a disservice. From what I’ve seen, the money spent on turnout gear and suppression equipment could be better spent somewhere else. They could run a salvage crew (related links HERE and HERE) and do the same as what they appear to be accomplishing now.

I should add here that I’m certain the Wytheville Fire Department, as well as Wythe County; has some GREAT firefighters. These Brothers and Sisters have a response area that includes 2 major Interstates (I-81 and I-77), urban / wild land interface, industrial complexes etc.  I hope they have a Chief capable of leading them in the right direction … Im not sure they do and if I’m right, I hope they find one. Their lives (and those of their community) depend on it.

I hope that by shedding light on these issues, the Wytheville Fire Department will emerge a better trained, safer and more efficient Department. That’s up to them and their leadership. I’ll extend an offer to these Brothers and Sisters to help in any way possible … all they have to do is ask.

I’ll remind those who commented stating that my facts in the original post were wrong that I attempted to contact the parties involved before publishing. I even requested transcripts from their 911 coordinator (who I believe is also a volunteer with the Wytheville Fire Department) through the Freedom Of Information Act so I could assure my timelines were accurate and read the communications first hand. So far, I have only been contacted by the Auxiliary and a member of the WFD who was pictured in the post.

Instead of following my site, maybe these folks should keep up with our good friend Dave Statter (Statter911.com) …. ok … they should follow us both.

Dave would have told them to reply to my requests and “get out in front” of the “issues”. That’s always better than playing “catch up” in these type of incidents .

Had they have replied, I would have been able to publish their “side” of the story. The side that despite all the comments etc, I still haven’t heard. Some of the comments are saying I have it all wrong but nobody is telling me what’s right.

As always, the comment section remains open. I’ll be back on duty tomorrow and check back in with ya as soon as possible. Until I do … stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

 

New firefighting technique developed in Wytheville, Va?

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I’ve heard a lot of troubling news out of Wytheville, Va lately. The latest reports  just shine more light on how bad the situation in Wythe County, Va really is.

You may remember back in August 2012 when I posted about the County (Wythe) closing the doors of the Speedwell Volunteer Fire Department. They cited  ”a lack of formal training” as just one of the reasons for the closure.

I later learned that they also had some trouble surrounding the former Speedwell Chief, Michael Hale; who had been convicted of felony embezzlement.

Read those previous articles HERE and HERE

Apparently, the County’s Chief Officer problem is not isolated to Speedwell.

In less than a week, the Wytheville Fire Department has had 2 house fires less than 4 miles apart in the Crockett’s Cove section of the County. Both homes were a total loss … burnt to the ground. The incidents happened just 5.8 miles from their station.

A lot of the reports I’m getting seem to point to poor leadership / management within the Department. In my opinion, some of the stories even border negligence.

Before I go further, let me say that I attempted to contact many of the parties involved. I even requested a transcript of the latest incident from the Counties E911 director, Mr Davidson. I explained that I was working on a story surrounding these incidents and wanted to assure the information I have is as accurate as possible. I have yet to receive a reply from any of the people / agencies I contacted.

The latest fire occurred at 214 Crockett’s Cove Road on Friday, November 16, 2012 @ 2:15 pm (5.8 miles from the Wytheville Fire Department).

The home was a “TOTAL LOSS” with damages estimated at $75,000.

One of the sad things surrounding this incident is that they (the Wytheville Fire Department) are almost bragging about it!

The Chief, Ronnie King ??? He’s taking FULL CREDIT.

A local paper, SW Va Today; even used the headline  ”Firefighters try out new technique in fire“.

“King, who thought of the idea, said he had never studied the technique in all of his years as a firefighter. I’d never heard of such a thing in all my hours of training, and I’ve had thousands and thousands of hours of training,” he said. “We plan on using it again.”

Chief King boasts 24 years in Fire / EMS. Read his Firefighter Nation Profile HERE

My first question is why Chief King didn’t name or title this new, revolutionary technique? He could have easily dubbed it something simple … maybe the “watch us let your house burn down technique”.

You see, instead of fighting the fire, which started in the living room and was “room and content” upon arrival; King directed his members to go straight to salvage operations.

Yes … SALVAGE. I don’t know how Chief King never learned that term in his “thousands and thousands of hours of training”. It’s such a simple term .. SALVAGE.

They cut a hole in an exterior wall on the opposite side of the home from the room of origin. They then formed a human chain to pass out firearms, clothing and even an X-Box. (click on the picture to enlarge it and you’ll see the members operating at the “hole”)

I need to get on the phone to Bobby Halton, Ray McCormick and a few other Brothers because apparently we’re going to have to change the technique of VES (Vent Enter Search) to Vent Enter Salvage.

Full story from SW Va Today HERE

When the Chief finally decided to try the technique the rest of American Firefighters use, putting water on the fire; he pulled small diameter hoses, attempted an exterior attack and quickly ran out of water…. IMAGINE THAT.

It’s my understanding that the Chief (Department) has a strict policy on interior firefighting. It’s very seldom attempted and then only at the discretion and orders of the Chief. The same policy applies to calling for mutual aid or additional resources such as a TANKER (Reports are that it was 45 minutes into the incident before mutual aid tankers were requested).

Egos, power struggles and a lack of training all seem to be prominent issues within the Wytheville Fire Department. The “good ol boy” system at work again as the Chief is elected by the members.

Here are some questions for the Chief …. Why did you not enter the house and attempt to extinguish the fire? Why did you not enter to “search”?

His reply is going to be that it was more than “room and content” upon arrival (it wasn’t). That the fire was too heavily involved.

Why then did you enter for salvage operations? Why did the members performing this “new technique” not have on proper PPE (Personal Protective Equipment) such as SCBA (Self Contained Breathing Apparatus)?

What if the room you opened up was the bathroom? What would you have salvaged then? Did you know it was a bedroom in advance? Did you use a chain saw or rotary saw? Was the power company on scene, did you pull the meter or cut cut through the live wires?

Why waste water on a pile of rubble? If you let the house burn down, why not just let it burn itself out (note the small diameter hose line still in use in the picture above left)?

Did your members run out of pizza? Yea … PIZZA. Apparently, the Wytheville Fire Department has a VERY supportive Auxiliary. Several pizzas were delivered to the scene and consumed while the home continued to burn. Yea .. a house burning party in celebration of Chief King’s new X-box saving technique and it all happened in front of the residents!

Now, I’m all for salvage operations and firefighter rehab but COME ON…. pizza! Salvage is a vital part of our job but the best way to perform salvage is to extinguish the fire!  Maybe then, these residents would have a TV to play their X-box on. Maybe they would have a home to put it in?

Apparently, Chief King is not a quick learner because he faced similar problems on the fire at 193 Chase Lane just a few days earlier on November 12th.

Once again, members ran out of water and there was a delay in requesting mutual aid tankers.

The use of small diameter hose lines was also reported.

The fire was said to have started “in the chimney” and the results were a total loss with damages estimated at over $70,000.

Smoke detectors alerted the residents of this home who all were able to escape without injury.

Chief King said “They are fortunate to be alive”.

That’s one thing he’s said that I’ll agree with.

Read the fully story HERE

The Wytheville Fire Department protects approx. 13,400 residents.

They cover a response area of 91.14 square miles.

Their claim an average response time of 3-7 minutes to their approximately 200 calls per year.

The Town of Wytheville has an ISO rating of 6 while the County’s rating is 9.

 

Here are some of the members giving a “thumbs up” at the Chase Lane fire. I guess they’re thankful to be alive.

Note the clean dry gear, the lack of SCBA and the small diameter hose line.

We can only hope Wythe County Administrators get a quick handle on this situation before there is a LODD (Line Of Duty Death) or the loss of civilians.

They seemed to have handled their Felon problem as well as the Speedwell issues rather swiftly. I believe that some of the Council members are actually volunteers themselves (hopefully that gives them a better understanding of the severity of these issues). They should at least start by dispatching additional tankers (or more) on all reported structure fires.

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I’ll keep ya updated on the situation as best possible. I hope everyone enjoyed the Thanksgiving Holiday and remembered to think about our Brothers and Sisters out there pulling a tour away from their families.

Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

A busy Halloween in “The Noke”

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Yesterday was Halloween and I jinxed myself with my last post.  I had hoped that like with Hurricane Sandy, we may be spared.

It wasn’t too bad (as bad as it could have been or as bad as others had it) but in our line of work, even one call is too many.

I’m riding “the car” as the acting Battalion for the North side and, that’s never good news for our Brothers and Sisters of C-Shift.

It was a typical tour until around 5pm…. then it started.

Our first notable call was for a possible house fire. I was first in with the Chief’s buggy to find smoke showing from the attic (sides Delta and Bravo) of a single story, wood framed, family dwelling. I gave the size up, marked it a working fire and established Command.

Engine #2 was close behind, pulled past and was assigned Division 1 (offensive attack).

I had been met by the occupants, stating that the fire was in the kitchen but extending through the walls / ceiling. I relayed that info to Captain Graham (E2) as his crew made the stretch and I made a 360 degree walk around. My initial size-up held.

Engine #5 was next in and would lay a line from E2 to our closest hydrant just a block away. Ladder #2 took the address and was assigned “search” and “ventilation” and set portable ladders to sides Delta and Bravo at the gable vents.

Next in was E3 who made the stretch into the attic for extension, while Medic 2 established RIC (Rapid Intervention Crew). Medic Unit 101 was assigned as the Medical Division and Medic #5 was attached to interior crews.

Our EMS supervisor, RS1; was assigned Safety and took position on side Charlie. Engine #1 was held in staging while the South Battalion assisted me. All members on scene did a great job of bringing the fire under control very quickly.

In our system, Command (and the members) are working towards three bench marks. “All Clear” on the searches, Primary and Secondary. “Fire Under Control” and “Loss Stopped”.

This fire was small but had gotten into the walls and made its way to the attic.

The boys did a great job of getting above it, cutting it off and extinguishing it.

Walls had to be pulled both interior and exterior as well as some ceiling. Everything was wet down, checked and double checked with the TIC (Thermal Imaging Camera).

Crews had 3 lines off (all 1 3/4″). One on the first floor, another to the attic and the third on the exterior where they had to pull siding etc near the point of origin / extension.

Again, quick work and a job well done by all members on scene!

After this job, the calls continued to roll in. Just as we sat down for dinner, we were toned out for a commercial alarm a nursing home. This is one of our “regular” runs, 99% of the time a false alarm or system malfunction.

Dispatch called radioed me while en route to advise that employees had called 911 to confirm smoke from one of the rooms….. GEESH!

I marked another “working fire” before the first unit even arrived. I’d rather have em on the road and not need them than need them and have to wait. Especially at a nursing home.

As it turned out, most of the “smoke” was from where employees had discharged several dry chemical extinguishers. The incident was easily handled by 2 Engines and a Ladder so the assignment was downgraded.

The evening continued with MVAs (Motor Vehicle Accidents), Automated Alarms and Medical runs. Thankfully, we had no major losses and all our members went home this morning. All considered  it was a good night.

There were plenty of Brothers and Sisters all across the Country who were not as fortunate.

There was both good and bad news out of Detroit.

The good news is that they didn’t see an increase in fires this year. The bad news is that they still had 93 fires over the 3 days they consider Halloween.

More from AP news HERE

Rhett also has some raw video of fires in Detroit over on Fire Critic.com … CLICK HERE .

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There were also Brothers and Sisters up and down the Eastern seaboard still working in the aftermath of Hurricane Sandy.

Members in New York, New Jersey and many other States were still going door to door today looking for folks in need of assistance.

They found more than that. The death toll from Hurricane Sandy has now grown to over 80 across 9 states… 38 of those were in New York.

Gas mains are broken and burning, buildings are unstable and collapsing. Raw sewage is draining into water systems (the few remaining anyway). Electrical systems remain under water and cluttered with debris. Like I’ve said before, the situation my look better for the public, simply because the winds have died and the water receded; but for us the conditions are just as hazardous.

Fire stations were flooded and much of their equipment lost.

Members were working to save people they’ve never met while their own families and possessions were in danger.

Several members ended up fighting fires in their own homes and neighborhoods. Sandy was DEVASTATING to say the least.

These Brothers and Sisters represented our profession well. A true display of Tradition, Pride, Honor and Respect.

Now, they need our help … a show of BROTHERHOOD. How will  these Departments rebuild? How long will it take? Where will the money come from? I want you to consider donating through the National Firefighters Endowment (NFE).

The NFE has set up a Relief Fund to provide immediate assistance. They have already received requests for an Engine and Ambulance and the NFE is close to filling the order.

If you can donate .. anything, use the link below. If your Department was affected by Sandy and needs immediate assistance for equipment replacement, use the link below. If you’re a company or business that would like to partner with us in our efforts, also use the link below.

NFE First Responder Relief Fund

Share and Post it to Face Book, Twitter and whatever Social Media you may use. Help get the word out and these Brothers and Sisters the equipment they need. ANYTHING you can do … ANYTHING you can send, we’ll take. If you’re not sure how to help or what you can do, call Shane Parkins, President of NFE @ (916) 572-1502.

TOGETHER, we can and will make a difference. BROTHERHOOD will prevail !

 Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

 

Fortunately spared

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Hurricane Sandy didn’t hit S.W. Virginia as hard as expected. We were fortunate. Not all of the East coast was.

I would not have bet on her missing us. Like the hurricane, everything was in place for “the perfect  storm”. You see, I’m riding as the acting Battalion for the North Side this cycle. The last time I rode was back on June 29th when a  “Derecho” blew through town.

At the time, I didn’t even know what a “Derecho” was. Now, I’ll never forget. We were right smack in the middle of it …. a living HELL. Read my post about that night by clicking the title below.

A Vision of Calm in the midst of Hell

I say we were fortunate yesterday because as bad as I thought we had it back in June, it was NOTHING compared to what our Brothers and Sisters on the North Eastern Coast (and inland) faced last night.

Sandy made landfall in New Jersey but caused havoc from South Carolina to Maine. She was devastating to say the least. Reports are of at least 48 dead (including a LODD) and millions without power. In New York City, entire blocks burned. Houses were washed away in New Jersey, businesses destroyed and more, much more and worse.

The damages and rebuilding costs are sure to be overwhelming. The loss of life, 10 fold.

Lt. Russ Neary of Easton, Connecticut has been identified as the Firefighter who died in the Line Of Duty. More details in the links below …

Easton, Connecticut LODD Lt. Russ Neary (FireCritic)

You can also find more coverage of Hurricane Sandy and her after math in the links below …….

Raw Video of FDNY in action (Dave Statter)

Hurricane Sandy coverage from The Fire Critic

More Video out of Queens on Fire Critic

Fox News.com

For many of the millions in the path of (and affected by) hurricane Sandy, those hours she devoured the East Coast may have very well been the worst of their life.

On the other hand, I feel as if it may have been “our finest hour” for first responders (I say that with all due respect to the affected …. allow me to explain).

You see, those Firefighters, Police Officers, Medics, National Guard, Coast Guard members etc. pulling a tour also lived in Sandy’s path. They knew all to well that their personal lives / property would be affected yet they “stood their post”. It’s what we do !

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They stood their post and performed BEAUTIFULLY!

I’ve read reports of members swimming to burning building to make searches / rescues.

Fire trucks loaded onto tractor trailers to better handle the high and rising water in the streets.

Rigs drafting flood water to knock down heavily involved buildings.

Swift Water teams making countless rescues.

Much like those members guarding the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier, the actions of our Brothers and Sisters in response to hurricane Sandy scream of PRIDE and HONOR.

I should also mention the dispatchers (telecommunicators) on duty during the storm. WOW ! There’s no way we could do what we do without them.

I tried to listen to FDNY’s live dispatch between our runs and they continue to amaze me with their  proficiency.

If you’ve never listened in, you should. You’ll be shocked. Take a listen and see what I mean, thanks to our Brothers over at The Bravest.com

There were several individuals  (on the larger scale) who stood out in my mind as well.

Folks like Mike Brooks of HLN, New Jersey Governor Chris Christie, NYC Mayor Bloomburg and a few more.

I know Mike Brooks personally and he had one hell of a segment on HLN yesterday. I haven’t been able to find it yet so I’ll wait until tomorrow to tell ya why these folks stand out in my mind.

I’ll also give a tip of the hat to my administration. Although we weren’t hit as hard as most (or as expected), we were prepared.

Unlike when the Derecho hit, we were not caught off guard. We were kept informed, given up to date projections / information and provided the necessary resources.

Fortunately, we only faced high winds and cold temps. Apparently the clean up from June’s Derecho was effective because we didn’t see near the number of downed power lines.

The Brothers from Stations #6, #11 and #1 made quick work of a residential fire over in South East. Other than that, we were spared any major incidents.

Just a quick post to say WELL DONE to everyone who pulled a tour during hurricane Sandy. STRONG WORK ! As power is restored and the water recedes, our duties will be just as hazardous. Situational and Positional Awareness !

Stay SAFE and in House … I’ll check back in tomorrow night.

Captain Wines

Some clarification before I retire (or at least before my next post)

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My last post drew a lot of attention….. both positive and negative. I knew it would and it’s why I choose the title I did. I asked our Network (Fire/EMS Blog Network) to push it to some of our bigger audiences. I was putting my neck out there but that’s what I do. I was asking a question, posting some of my observations and asking for comments / debate. If you haven’t read it yet, please take the time and use the link below (but you can’t read JUST the title)…

Read “Is the Medic Mentality what’s actually killing the Fire Service?

Judging from some of the comments, I am a condescending,  egotistical, CLOWN who knows nothing about Emergency Medical Services and should retire (WOW … somebody actually knows me …LOL).  By some accounts, I am actually the root of the problem I was attempting to expose (me and “my kind” anyway).

I’ve never claimed to be a great writer. I know that I’m not and, quite frankly; I’ve never understood the popularity that this site (and my writings) attracts and enjoy. With that said, obviously; I must be doing something right.

I’m not the most articulate person. I write too much like I talk and I’m about as Southern redneck / cowboy as they come. I’m also a 2nd generation firefighter who speaks just that … “firefighter”.  I walk, talk and breath “firefighter” but for many, that definition in itself my vary.

You see, for me; the term “firefighter” is a “catch all”, “do it all” phrase if you will. To me, for example; the term “firefighter” should automatically encompass Emergency Medical Services. When someone encounters an emergency, they call the Fire Department. ANY EMERGENCY. House fire, stroke, vehicle accident, wires down, grass fire, chest pain or subject unresponsive, the Fire Department is expected to respond and mitigate the situation. I take PRIDE in that.

I’ve never understood why so many Departments these days call themselves “Fire and EMS” or Fire and Rescue”. The two terms should go hand in hand but instead,  the name alone indicates two separate functions and it shouldn’t be that way.

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In my previous post, I guess I also didn’t give enough of my personal background. Typically, I don’t write about in detail or mention the name of the Department I work in. I still wont but I will say that I am an IAFF (International Association of Firefighters) member. I work for a career, urban Department in SW Virginia. I was hired into a “Fire Department” in 1991 who then merged with an “EMS Department”  in 1995. I have held the rank of Firefighter, Lieutenant, 1st Lieutenant and made Captain in 2000. I’ve tested and  been ranked 1st on the Battalion Chief’s promotional list. I am currently an EMT-B but have also held certifications as Shock Trauma, Cardiac Tech and as a Nationally Registered Paramedic. As an EMS provider, I’ve worked in both the public and private sector, paid and volunteer.

It’s been my experience that most of these “mergers” I spoke about were not well thought out. They came up with the idea from the results of some study and then simply threw the two very different groups together (Fire and EMS). As far as I can tell, many never even considered the differences in cultures / mentalities of the two groups they were about to combine. They never thought about the effects such a merger would have on the members. I say this from personal experience and/or from e-mails, comments and conversations with friends, fans and readers. It’s my observation and I’m sure its not the case with every merger or with every Fire based EMS Department in the Country.

For those of you who presume to know me or think that I’m anti-EMS, you couldn’t be more wrong. Despite my youth, I was one of the more outspoken members in favor of the merger involving my Department back in the 90′s. It was an unpopular position at the time. I was a young cocky firefighter assigned to the busiest Engine in the City. Although the City (my Department) didn’t recognize it, I was also a Paramedic at the time. My favorable feelings toward the merger had nothing to do with my certifications though. To me, it was all about our “customers” .. the citizens we were sworn to protect and serve.

Ok, back to the previous post. In that post, and the earlier one ( How to kill a Fire Department ); I was attempting to make a point about poor leadership.  Poor leadership often results in low morale (among other things) which could equate to a lower work ethic and ultimately to poor customer service. Although I didn’t point them out specifically, many of the examples I was drawing from had Chief Officers who came from a strictly EMS background. I wanted to point out how Medics (or EMS personnel) are trained and conditioned (for the most part) to work alone. How I thought it was difficult (not impossible) for those same people to now lead a group of Firefighters who are trained / conditioned in a totally different manner. The exact opposite is also true. It would be equally as difficult for a Fire Chief with no EMS experience to effectively lead a group of EMS personnel.

My plans were to talk more in depth about Fire based EMS in a future post (kinda of tying all these together).  I personally think that it’s an unfinished “project” here in the United States. I also think it’s one we need to complete. In many cases, our Medics are treated as 2nd class employees. Some of the comments were dead on … sitting in the truck for 12 hours. Assigned to a street corner rather than a  house. Eating off your lap or out of a bag rather than at the table. Sleeping sitting up or on a stretcher. Poor working conditions and it’s all UNACCEPTABLE in my mind.

What kind of customer service do you think these folks provide? Good I hope but how much better could it be if they were treated differently? If they were in a better, more comfortable situation / work place environment.  What kind of leadership places them in that situation in the first place? What “numbers game” are they playing? It’s obvious that they don’t realize that their employee is their greatest asset.

I think Fire based EMS offers a positive alternative and can be successful when instituted properly. Now I understand that there are  firefighters who want nothing to do with EMS and there are Medics who want nothing to do with fighting fires etc. Can we change that mentality in the future? I don’t know. Why aren’t we working toward doing that right now?

A merger or Fire based EMS system also has to be done for the right reasons and it’s NOT money. EMS does not generate funds for a Fire Department …. not in the public sector anyway and I will debate that with ya all day long. The reason for such an undertaking should be CUSTOMER SERVICE and /or SERVICE DELIVERY.

As far as some of the comments in the last post, THANK YOU. At least you took the time to write down and share your thoughts. It’s what I asked for. As far as the criticism, I can take it but I’d ask you to step back and take a look at what just happened. We have a saying around here … I threw a rock and you barked! In a way, you almost validated my point. It seems like some of you actually drew the “line” that I said once existed. Again, maybe I didn’t do the best job of getting my point across. I don’t expect everyone to agree with my opinions and I’m thankful to have this platform to voice them.

Strong leadership is what will build the next generation of firefighters and that’s no easy task. It’s important to remember that leadership begins from the ground level up. Without the respect and support of the members, a leader may very well become ineffective. There are many changes on  the horizon for the Fire Service and I’m excited to see what direction they may lead us in. We are fortunate to have a vast array of great leaders already in place within our profession with many more in the waiting. What kind of leaders do you have?

Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

 

Is the “Medic Mentality” what’s actually killing the Fire Service?

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I slammed out a pretty decent post last week. I say I “slammed” it out because I was frustrated as hell when I wrote it. I also say it was “pretty decent” because of the number of “Hits”, “Shares” and “Comments” it received… and they’re still coming in! If you haven’t already, please take the time to read it before going further in this post (just click the title below)

read  ”How to kill a Fire Department

Ok, so I’m guessing that the title of this post  captured the attention of many.  It may have even upset a few of ya. Now, before you start gathering a posse, or tone out the lynch mob; give me the chance to explain my thought process here. Also try to keep in mind that this is a question. I’m asking because I want your opinion. It may or may not be mine … these are just some observations I’ve made.

In the previous post (How to kill a Fire Department) I threw a lot of the “blame” on low morale. In turn, I equated low morale to poor leadership. It must have “hit home” for a lot of Brothers and Sisters out there. The majority of those leaving comments and e-mails not only agreed, but also felt as if I was writing about their very own Department. It was almost like I could have put one of those boxes in the post … you know … something like  ”Insert your Department name HERE”.

I’d like to say that I was shocked at some of the responses I received but I can’t. We are all facing the same challenges and fighting the same battles. It’s the same story town after town, city after city. The same ol story, a Nation wide problem with different names and faces.

I found several other similarities in the stories and responses I received as well. To me, it all makes sense and is actually something I’ve felt for some time. You see, most of the Brothers and Sisters complaining of poor leadership and / or low morale are from Fire Departments  who have either merged with an EMS department or hired a Chief from the “EMS side” of things (again …HOLD ON and allow me to explain).

First, I know there shouldn’t be “sides” when speaking about  Fire and EMS. We’re all on the job for the same reason right? We’re supposed to be Brothers and Sisters, watching each others back. We’re on the same streets, running the same calls, seeing the same heartaches day after day…. right? Right.

I think that many of the newer / younger members of today’s Fire Service may not even realize it but, as early as just 15 years ago; there were definite lines drawn between Fire and Emergency Medical Services.

Mergers were happening all across the Country. “Medics” were walking through doors of fire houses making more money than members who had time on the job. That’s understandable until they say that the firefighter has to ride the ambulance for a tour so the medic can get some “Engine time”.

You can guess what the feelings were and what was said in that house can’t ya? … Engine time? I though they were making more money because they rode the ambulance? Now, with less seniority and experience; he ( or she) wants to do my job, to make me do his (or hers) and all because he or she needs a break or wants to play fireman!?!

Many across the Country even received “rank” in these mergers.  The “magic wand” was waved and they entered the door as Lieutenants, Captains, Battalions and even Deputies. In many’s eyes, it HAD to be that way. How could a “Fire Department” Officer supervise a Paramedic? How many “Fire Department” Officers understood the functions and needs of Emergency Medical Services or how their system works? The reality was that some Medical personnel would HAVE to be placed in those positions and many went straight to administrative Chief positions.

Maybe not a bad idea at first, BUT what happens when original or “Fire Department” administration begins to retire? After the Department begins to “settle in” to the new organization? Will these folks remain in their positions or be allowed to advance up the promotional ladder?

I received several comments and e-mails explaining (and complaining) how many current Chief of Departments came from “EMS”….. that they were never a firefighter nor did they have to climb through the ranks. It was also said that they didn’t understand “the job” or it’s members (“paper” education vs. street experience was also frequently mentioned ).

It was obvious to me that there is not a lot of respect for these Chiefs. How could there be?

In that previous post (How to kill a Fire Department), I mentioned a story that a previous Chief once told me. He attempted to explain that the pilot of a 747 never had to work in the position of  loading the baggage. He (tried to ) explain that the pilot didn’t need to know and understand that job to do his ( this is the same Chief that told me that I couldn’t be a Boss and friend to the members ).

Now this may be true of a Pilot , but I don’t think it applies to the Fire Department. How can you lead men and women you don’t relate to? How can you understand their thinking? Their methodology? How good of a leader can you be without knowing and understanding their history and traditions? How can a person who has never sat on the tailboard for a bullshit session, ate at a firehouse table or slept in the bunk room understand firefighters?

So that brings me to my point. Many of the Chiefs leading these “troubled Departments” are Medics ( or at least previous medics). I guess this is a good spot to tell you that I was once a medic. YEA … a National Registered “glitter patch” Paramedic. That said, I was and always have been a firefighter first. I am NOT anti-Medic or EMS and I don’t think the problems I’m referring to is simply because these Chiefs are / were “Medics”, I believe it’s deeper than that .

I think it may be due to what I call the “Medic mentality”. It’s something that has been en-grained in them … from their first day of training. They think nothing at all like a Firefighter and now,  somehow they’ve found themselves managing an entire Fire Department.

Many of them either have,  or will fail ….. and it’s NOT THEIR FAULT.

They were taught (trained) to do everything by themselves (much like Police Officers). They spent a large portion of their career ALONE in the back of that ambulance. Nobody there to make decisions for them. Nobody to give direction, to assist with drug calculations, administration etc. It was a TON of responsibility on their shoulders. Theirs and theirs alone.

Sure, they had a partner but his/her job was to drive and clean up after the Medic. They even put a wall between the front and rear of the ambulance (hows that for separation and the reality of being on your own?)

They stayed on the street …. they didn’t have a “house” and if they did, it wasn’t the same as a firehouse. Often times, their partners changed with each shift. There was nothing “grounded” or regular for them. A “house” with a different partner every shift was just a place to hang out and watch TV with someone they really didn’t know … there was no sense of “ownership”.

In a lot of these cases, the medic had to out perform  his co-workers to have even a remote chance of promotion or transfer. It was a dog eat dog world and they did whatever necessary to make themselves look better than the next guy. It was easy to screw the other guy over because there were no ties to each other. In that type of work environment  there was no Brotherhood, there couldn’t be. Without a doubt, these Brothers and Sisters were on their own…they were alone. Alone in the ambulance, alone in quarters, maybe even alone at home because of it all.

For the good ones, it became 2nd nature. It HAD to. They couldn’t be taught to depend on anyone else because there was nobody else. They were on their own, they knew it and if they were to survive, they had better be good at it!

Then, when someone decided to throw them into a firehouse, they didn’t fit in. Some adapted, for others it took longer and many never did.

They couldn’t understand things as simple as meals. Cooking? Why don’t we just jump on the rig and run down to Burger King for a biscuit? Wendy’s for lunch and maybe a pizza or something when we get hungry later tonight …say around 2 am. Nobody has to cook OR do the dishes! Cleaning? Toilets? “But I don’t use that one”.  Station dues / taxes? “I don’t drink coffee or read the paper”. When you told em to find a rack and make it they looked at you like they were lost. A bed? They wanted to just sleep on the couch … after all, that’s where they were used to eating and sleeping.

It went right over their heads … all of it. A firehouse is just that…. a home. It’s our home, albeit our 2nd home; and the members inside are FAMILY.

How can they respect something they’ve never had? Something they don’t understand or have any ties to? When they became Chief, closing that station was an easy decision … station life meant nothing to them. They’d never worked at that old house. They never knew now deceased or retired  ”Captain so and so” who did ‘this and that” and taught your recruit class.

I also think that back when “the lines were drawn” there was some animosity between us (Fire and EMS). I think they seen what we had over in the firehouses and wanted to be part of it… they were envious  The bad part again is that they didn’t truly understand what we had and how to get it. They figured that by just backing into the firehouse, they would  automatically  join our ranks.

That is the type of “mentality” most of us faced back then. Now, many of these members are in Chief positions all across the Country. Judging from the comments / e-mails I’ve received, several (not all)  have maintained that mentality throughout their career.  If true, then THIS is the mentality of our leaders. Agian I’ll say that it’s not their fault … it’s simply ALL THEY KNOW.

I should also add that I think (and hope) this type of mentality will phase out (hopefully sooner than later). Today’s Medics are coming onto the job and reporting straight into the firehouse. They are introduced to “firehouse life” from the beginning and I don’t think that is a bad thing.

Let me know your thoughts BUT keep em civil .

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Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

 

31st Annual National Fallen Firefighters Memorial Weekend

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The Fire Critic (Rhett Fleitz) and I are in Emmitsburg, Maryland for the 31st Annual National Fallen Firefighters Memorial Weekend. This is our 3rd time attending the Weekend together. See a post from out 1st trip by CLICKING HERE and our 2nd time  HERE 

Learn about the Memorial Weekend from their web site by CLICKING HERE

Once again, we left work and family behind but our sacrifice would soon pay off. Actually, I shouldn’t even have said it “THAT” way because those that we are here to HONOR have made a much bigger sacrifice.

This weekend, Firefighters from all across the Country will HONOR 80 of our Brothers and Sisters who lost their lives in the Line of Duty in 2011 (as well as 5 others from a previous year). Not only will we HONOR our fallen, we will also continue to build the SUPPORT NETWORK for the survivors. That’s really what this weekend is all about … THE SURVIVORS.

We left home at 06:30 this morning and headed to Arlington National Cemetery .

Every year, during the Memorial Weekend; The Sentinels place a wreath at the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier on behalf of the NFFF and the survivors of our fallen.  It’s an emotional and humbling experience to witness.

If you’ve never attended / visited the NFFF Memorial or attended the Memorial Weekend, YOU’RE MISSING OUT!  Paid or volunteer, rookie or Chief, EVERY MEMBER of the Fire Service needs to experience what happens here. You need to walk these hallowed grounds. To experience the emotion.

My visits here have always been life altering experiences. I’ve often referred to them as being even “spiritual”.  This year, more so than others.

This was this first time I’ve attended the wreath laying. It was also my first visit to the Arlington National Cemetery.

I still can’t explain the feeling I had seeing all the graves. The tombstones (markers) in PERFECT formation.

It was a silent SCREAM.

A silent scream of PRIDE, HONOR, TRADITION and RESPECT. It painted a true picture of BROTHERHOOD between the living and the dead. I held back tears and pulled for a breath as I read the names and dates of men I never knew. Men who gave their lives for folks like us …. for guys like me.

Then I learned the story. The story of The Sentinels and why they stand guard over the Tomb (use the previous link to learn more).

Again, those words resonate .. Pride, Honor, Tradition and Respect.

The Soldiers were amazing to watch. I got to see them stand guard. I got to see The Changing of the Guard. I seen them change the wreath. All done with precision … with discipline .

Not only was I honored to have been witness, I was equally (actually more so) honored to have shared the experience with Rhett. We have see and been through so much with each other that each new experience continues to amaze us.

There were several members of our Honor Guard on hand as well. In the video, you may notice them lining the front rows of the viewing platform. I also failed to mention that the lady assisting in placing the wreath is a survivor.

More PICTURES from the Wreath Laying Ceremony by clicking HERE 

The weekend is just beginning and there’s a lot left to be done (in several aspects). That said, if you can attend, GET HERE ….. anyway you you can.

If not, we will have plenty of outlets for you to view and participate from home. Keep checking here, FireCritic and the NFFF web site as well as on our Face Book pages.

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I’ll try to keep ya updated as much as possible. Until I get back, stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

Augusta County (Va) working, Fatal fire takes the life of 11 yr old boy

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A Dooms, Va. boy is dead following a fatal house fire early Sunday morning (September 30, 2012). Dustyn Fitzgerald was 11 years old and had just started attending Wilson Middle School.

The family was awakened by their 5 year old son’s screams for them to wake up. His room was on fire. The parents and 5 year old’s bedroom were both located on the first floor. Dustyn’s room was on the second.

The home reportedly had smoke detectors in place. The mother stated that they had been recently checked but they were not operating at the time of the fire.

The husband, wife and 5 year old were able to make it safely outside, despite the rapidly deteriorating conditions. The mother, Michelle Gibson; then made several attempts to alert and reach her elder son still trapped on the second floor.

“We were yelling for him and all he kept saying was, mama, mama, I can’t breathe, mama.”

“I kept hollering for him. I thought I heard him coming down the steps but he never came down.”

Meanwhile, a neighbor heard breaking glass and noticed the blaze next door. Flames were shooting from every window as he called 911.

The call was received at 08:31 and the first unit arrived at 08:37.

The picture to the left was taken just moments after their arrival.

A good friend and well respected Chief from Augusta County sent me this photo and a description of the valiant effort and heroics the Brothers and Sisters of Augusta County Fire / Rescue performed that morning.

Volunteer agencies Dooms, Wilson and New Hope along with career units from Augusta County Fire-Rescue Engine 111 and Waynesboro Fire Dept. were assigned to the alarm.

Waynesboro’s crew quickly stretched a line to the Alpha side in a effort to make a knock on the fire and protect the members from Augusta’s E-111 who were entering from the Delta side to perform a primary search. Dooms quickly established Command while Augusta’s Duty Officer had “Operations”.

Despite heavy fire conditions, extreme heat and extension to the floor above, two members from E111, who were described as two of the youngest; pushed to make the 2nd floor where they were able to locate the downed victim. The child was quickly removed from the structure and turned over to awaiting EMS personnel where he was pronounced dead.

Approximately 30 minutes later, the fire was reported under control.

More from WHSV.com by CLICKING HERE or from The News Virginian HERE

THIS IS WHY WE TRAIN. It is why we are here. Why we do what we do. Although the outcome was tragic, these Brothers and Sisters did everything within their power to change it. They were obviously “Battle Ready”. They were prepared and responded quickly. They were well trained, properly equipped, and disciplined.

Take another look at the picture above left (taken moments after arrival). What would your size up have been? With “confirmed entrapment” reported, would you have taken time for a walk around? What about the Rules of Engagement? How about Survivability Profiling? With only seconds to sum it up and decide, and that much fire showing upon arrival; would you have made the push ?

It was refreshing to read the Chief’s e-mail. The PRIDE he holds for his men, for his Department and the job was evident in his writing. Like him, I too commend the efforts of all members involved. WELL DONE Brothers … keep up the good work!

Learn more about Augusta County Fire/Rescue by CLICKING HERE

Stay Safe and in House!

Captain Wines

How to kill a Fire Department

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The sad truth is that it happens everyday. All across the Country.

What’s even worse is the fact that I’ve seen it first hand. I’ve watched from the cheap seats and, unfortunately; from the front row as well.

In my opinion, it all boils down to leadership. ISO ratings, National Accreditation Stickers or any other achievements for that matter have no bearing on the morale or the “state” of a Department without strong, true LEADERSHIP.

I’ve had to try to take some time to calm down and collect my thoughts prior to attempting this post and, I’m still not sure if I’ve reached that point. Lately, several issues have continued to grow and fester in my mind and the more I think about them, the madder I become ( I’m not sure if I’m more mad or disappointed … I guess maybe my expectations are just too high).

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There have been some serious local issues around me lately and, quite honestly; their outcomes have had me feeling like I could “puke in my mouth” (this statement will come back up later in the post … you’ll understand more at that point). I feel sick to my stomach.

I know of a Department here in SW Virginia that is sinking FAST. From my personal knowledge and conversations with it’s members, it’s obvious that Department morale is at an ALL TIME LOW.

It’s a SHAME. This Department was at one time (in many’s opinion) the most well respected and desired employer in the area. Today, it’s simply an “option”. It’s better than being unemployed and  will at least look good on an application to anywhere other than there. It’s become a “stepping stone”.  A vast expanse for what Scott Mutter and I used to call “tumble weed employees” blowing through to bigger and better places.

The demographics don’t seem to offer any logic either. “Playing the numbers” just doesn’t work. Employees are MORE than a number … more than a statistic. NOBODY wants to work or stay in workplace environments such as these. Even closer to home for me, the Roanoke Times  recently published an article on the diversity of the Roanoke Police Department. In that article, they spoke of the hiring and recruitment practices of the City and their desire to become more diverse. Read that article by CLICKING HERE .

What they failed to mention in that article is the problem within the City as related to RETENTION of their members.

In my mind, you can’t talk about one without the other … they go together …recruitment and retention.

Rhett had an excellent example involving the City over on the FireCritic.com just the other day. The “Junior Member” of his company, who happens to be a “minority” left the Fire Department to become a Police Officer within the same City.

Read about Jason Gardner’s last shift HERE

This is a young member … a good, desirable employee. Do you mean to tell me that a Department that used to boast 30+ year careers now can’t keep a member longer than 5 years? Not even the minority members whom they actively recruit?

J.G is not the first young member to leave either (minority or not). The “turnover rate” within this Department since (approx.) 1995 to the present has far exceeded the same  numbers from its inception to that date. I wonder why nobody is looking at these numbers? Is this a “generational effect” or the result of low morale …. poor management / leadership?

Another local example can be found in last week’s Officer Seminar held in Roanoke. I’ve spoken several times here lately about Chris Naum being the featured speaker at the 5th Annual Southwest Virginia’s Officer Seminar for 2012. Chris is a great speaker with a remarkable resume. How many times do you get a speaker of this caliber in your area? One who travels the “National Circuit”, well educated, published, a contributing writer to Firehouse and Fire Engineering Magazines, founder or contributor to various websites such as The Secret List, Firefighter Close Calls and Everyone Goes Home.

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The event was open to the entire region yet only approx. 160 members attended (approx 160 over 2 days, 80 each with the same presentation). It’s EMBARRASSING. Do the members of Southwest Va know it all? Do we NOT need training such as this…. a different view or perspective? Have they become complacent or is it simply a lack of motivation? Or, could  this too be related to low morale and poor LEADERSHIP / MANAGEMENT?

I spoke with a Chief of one of the larger Departments eligible to attend. This was a career Department who’s members could have attended AT NO COST. They had less than 10 members in attendance (that’s over BOTH days of the 2 day Seminar… 10 members!).  In the past, this Department has even sent “on duty” companies down to listen in …. NOT THIS YEAR.

I asked one of the Chiefs if the turnout was embarrassing to him and/or his Department. I asked his thoughts on the poor attendance. His reply was no, it was not embarrassing.  The explanation he gave was that his Department had instructors of this caliber “in house”. His members didn’t need to attend functions such as this to receive quality training.

REALLY? My mouth must have hit the floor. I know this Department. They have some GREAT members. Some GREAT instructors, motivators and leaders but I haven’t seen them offering classes. I found myself quickly racking my brain in an attempt to remember if I had overlooked any training opportunities offered by this Department. I hadn’t.  I couldn’t help but think … where are these great instructors? Why isn’t this Chief promoting them and offering their knowledge and talents to our Valley? Why were these instructors not at the Seminar to support Naum?

I wonder if the thought of low morale ever crosses this Chief’s mind. I wonder if he has ever considered that morale in his Department is so low that his member are not going to spend their day off in a class that they are not going to be compensated for (even though compensation shouldn’t matter when it comes to quality training… there were plenty of Volunteer members in attendance at the Seminar).

I wonder if he even realizes what an insult his statement was. An insult to Chris Naum, to the members of the committee that has put this Seminar together over the last 5 years and an insult to the Fire Service in general.

I wonder if he even knows that this type of attitude towards training (if it is indeed the case) should be a HUGE WARNING FLAG for the Command Staff of his Department.  Members not motivated to attend training at this level. It doesn’t matter if it’s due to the  lack of compensation or for other reasons. Even if you don’t agree with the entire presentation, at least you’re likely to come away having learned something! Even this Chief revealed a  mind set of not needing “outside” help. Maybe it’s more like not “wanting” outside help / influences (what if these “outsiders” made him look bad? What if they revealed his short comings?). I doubt he even understands what he said. It’s the culture that’s been bred into this new generation of firefighters / Departments. It’s the  mind set of many of our leaders today.

Nobody is looking after the members anymore. It’s not about the men … it’s all about the numbers. Yea … we’ve heard so much about the “Culture of Extinguishment” vs. a “Culture of Safety” that we haven’t even noticed the development of the  Culture of “ME”.

Chiefs are seemingly too busy making their bosses happy. Cutting budgets, station closures, manpower cuts, consolidations, brownouts …. anything to balance a budget, save money and make themselves look better in the eyes of whomever. It’s easier than having to stand up and justify their needs.

Cover ups, misdirection, deception and even outright lies are not unheard of anymore. Yet we (the members) are held to a seemingly higher standard … MORALES AND ETHICS.

In a lot of cases, the members are no better….stomping on the backs of their Brothers and Sisters just to get ahead. Forget right and wrong … in today’s Fire Service, it’s whatever it takes to make yourself look good in the eyes of the bosses….. even when / if they’re wrong. Some of these members are the exact ones that you would have never thought of having this attitude.

It’s the age old tactic of divide and conquer. As long as the members buy into this management style, their voice will never be heard. If it is, it’s a single voice … not the collective. As long as there are Chiefs out there who haven’t EARNED their position, it will always be an uphill battle for the boots on the street. These types of managers can’t understand the challenges we face … they’ve never been in our boots.

I had a Chief tell me one time that the reason I was skipped for promotion was that I was too close to the men. His rational was that you can’t be a Boss and a friend. I say you can. You can IF you also have their respect.

If the members respect you, they will never put you in a position or test Boss vs friend.

As far as earning your position / rank, this same Chief once said that a pilot of a 747 airbus never had to learn the job of loading baggage to become the pilot. His relation of this to the fire service was that a member doesn’t need to work as a Firefighter, a Lieutenant, Captain or Battalion to serve as a Chief Officer. A manager is a manager … big business or small Fire Department.

Again, I disagree. By “coming through the ranks” a Chief (hopefully) EARNS the respect of his members. Even when coming from the outside in, knowing that a Chief has walked the same path we have earns him the benefit of the doubt.

I’m kind of getting off point here but it also brings me to it. LOW MORALE is what kills a Fire Department and the morale of any Department starts at the top.

Low morale leads to no confidence in an administration. High morale motivates a Department to perform to higher standards. That said, leaders who are well respected, who have worked through the ranks and understand the feelings, needs and sacrifices of  their members are better equipped to motivate those members. They understand that even the little things can make a big difference. They know that it’s better to tell the hard truth rather than leading the members on with misgivings, deceptions  and lie after lie. They understand that as firefighters, we can handle the bad news …. we see it everyday!

Motivated members make a Department prosper. A Department that shines makes its City, County etc shine. Somewhere along the lines, we’ve made a wrong turn … we’ve got it backwards. It’s not a Chief or his hand picked administration that makes a Department …. it’s the members …. from the newest recruit up.

Have ya ever heard the saying that it’s the Company that makes the Captain look good? Well, it’s true. Keep em happy and they’ll do a good job for ya. Be their friend but LEAD them. Give direction. Listen to their needs and concerns. Be there for them. Be strict but fair…. open and honest.  Set goals … have high expectations and share them. Meet them … hell EXCEED them but do it TOGETHER! If you got there “right”,  then they’ll know it and that your intentions are true. They’ll follow you … after all, you’re one of them … you’ve been in their boots.

Chief Rick Lasky says it best in his Pride and Ownership presentation. If you’ve never heard Chief Lasky speak, you’re missing out (and to the local Chief I spoke of earlier, I guarantee you’re Department doesn’t have many speakers of this caliber “in house”).

It just so happens that Chief Lasky is presenting Pride and Ownership in Staunton, Va this weekend; October 6th. Whats even better is that the cost of admittance is simply a donation of canned food which will to donated to a local food bank….. now THERE’S and Administration that GETS IT!

Learn more about the Staunton Va Fire / Rescue Department by clicking HERE .

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Agusta County Fire and Rescue HERE

The event is to be held on Saturday, October 6th from 8am-5pm at Robert E. Lee High School (1200 North Coalter Street, Staunton, VA 24401).

For more information, contact Chief R. Scott Garber @ 540-332-3884 or via e-mail at …. GarberRS@ci.staunton.va.us

Rhett and I will not be able to attend due to our obligations at the National Fallen Firefighters Memorial Weekend in Emmitsburg, Md that weekend. If you are ANYWHERE, this weekend; I hope it’s at either of these two events.

Thanks for indulging the “rant” ….. Stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

The Fire Critic and Ironfiremen.com make South Dakota!

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There is a lot more than corn and soy beans growing in South Dakota …. the BROTHERHOOD is not only alive and well out there, it’s flourishing!

Rhett ( FireCritic.com ) and I have just returned from a 5 day tour across the state. It was another unbelievable experience for us!

Bob Gard, a good friend, Brother and Canton SD firefighter; created the South Dakota Firefighter’s Benefit . His idea was to bring the firefighters of South Dakota and surrounding areas together in an effort to share in the Brotherhood while raising money for various Fire Service organizations that are solely funded through donations. The event was the first of it’s kind for South Dakota!

This year, Bob chose to support The National Fallen Firefighter’s Foundation as well as the National Firefighters Endowment. With the Benefit itself being not for profit, after all the bills are paid; the remaining funds will be split between the two organizations.

Bob did it up BIG and pulled off a great event.  He chose me and Rhett to be the guest speakers for the event but he didn’t stop there. He also came up with the idea to bring us out early in an effort to promote the event by traveling across the state visiting various Departments, members etc.

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It was no easy task …. so he enlisted the help of several local businesses / companies that I’ll list along the way.

To begin with, I should mention that Shane Parkins (President of The National Firefighter’s Endowment) made the entire trip with us as well. Although Rhett and I have been working closely with the NFE and Shane over the past year, this was the first time we’ve met in person.

We all flew in to Rapid City South Dakota where Bob and Gary picked us up in a Spartan ERV fire truck. YEA … they picked us up in a brand new fire truck that we toured across the entire state in! If you haven’t seen or checked out a Spartan ERV truck … use that link above and check em out …. it was a GREAT rig.

Our first stop was Mount Rushmore….WOW! I had no idea.

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If I forgot to mention it, this was the first time either of us had been to South Dakota so obviously, it was our first time to Mount Rushmore (We would also make other “tourist” type stops at places such as Deadwood, Walls Drug and more).

Mount Rushmore was so much more amazing in person than what I had imagined.

Rhett and I managed to get us “off schedule” right from the start because we took the time to visit the museum, look at the photographs, watch the videos etc.

We were like kids on a field trip and both thought and of the hopes of being able to take our children (grandchildren) there some day.

After Bob and Gary pulled us off the mountain, we stopped in to say hello to the Brothers at the Keystone fire Department.

It was a great visit!

The Brothers on duty (it’s actually a combination Department) gave us the grand tour.

One of the coolest things that we learned while there was that they are the ONLY Department in the United States licensed (or allowed) to use the Mount Rushmore “logo”.

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We left Keystone and headed back to Rapid City. There, we would visit a couple stations including #4 as well as their Headquarters. It was there that we got yet another pleasant surprise.

These Brothers and Sisters had a 1929 American LaFrance  in storage.

The truck was actually in very good shape, all things considered.

The truck was original to Rapid City but later found it’s way to the Dobson Antique Toy and Firehouse Museum in Michigan.

The Museum began to liquidate their pieces and contacted the Brothers and Sisters of Rapid City to see if they wanted her back. Well heck yea! Anyway, the good news is that she’s back where she belongs. They even let Rhett and I take a seat on her. We could have stayed there all night but it was right at 6pm and we didn’t want to delay their meal. I can’t wait to get back to South Dakota and see how the refurb turns out!

From there, we headed to the Firehouse Brewing Company for dinner. The restaurant is actually and old firehouse in Rapid City…. not just ANY house either. This was the house that the antique ladder actually ran out of!  How cool is that?!?

We have to say a special THANK YOU to the Firehouse Brewing Company because they hosted us for dinner. Yea … while planning the itinerary, Bob had told them that we were heading to town, why we were there and what we were doing. They  insisted that we not only eat there but that they pick up the tab! If you’re ever in Rapid City, South Dakota … stop and eat at the Firehouse Brewing Company!

It was at dinner where Shane presented me and Rhett  with yet another unbelievable gift.

Custom computer bags made by Evon Cassier Bags!

Find them on Face Book or their Web Site HERE

These bags are AWESOME!

It took me a minute to figure out but then it hit me. I thought it looked too good. Too familiar if you will. Then it hit me …. this was from my father’s turnout coat! Talk about the perfect gift! OMG … I have to admit that my eyes may have watered up just a bit. That someone would think enough of me to do something of this caliber …. something that means so much to me. WOW!

You can buy your own through the links above OR simply join the NFE’s Officer’s Club (at the Chief level) where you’ll be eligible to win the one they’re giving them away this month!

It was also where Bob presented us with the custom painting pictured at the top right of this post. He actually had two of them made … one for each of us! They were done by Darrell Fitch of Fire Medic Art.com  You can also find them on Face Book HERE . All you have to do is visit the sites or click the photo above to see the detail Darrell puts into his work. You can rest assured that these two will be framed and hanging with Pride!

Leaving Rapid City, we headed out for Deadwood. Along the way, we made a stop by the Sturgis Volunteer Fire Department. Of course Sturgis is most famous for their yearly motorcycle rally but to me, it’s their Fire Department that really shines! The Chief even came it out (at like 10:30 / 11:00 pm) and provided a fantastic tour. These guys were actually excited to have us out!

From there, we headed out for Dead Wood and the Historic Franklin Hotel!

I was VERY excited! I know a little about the history of Deadwood and couldn’t wait to walk the streets.

The Hotel was more than I could have imagined. Old fashioned, yet somewhat modern and very clean. They even have a casino in the lobby! How many chances do ya get to be dealt a hand in Deadwood?

The picture to the rights tells a lot of the story.

In all of our travels, this is the first hotel that Rhett and I have stayed at that actually had and used REAL room keys! No kidding … if you’re even in or near Deadwood, STAY at the Silverado Franklin Hotel!

The next morning, we were up bright and early for a visit and tour of the Deadwood Volunteer Fire Station.

Yea… the Chief and members were up at 6am to show us their hospitality.

To us, that screams PRIDE and Brotherhood!

It was another GREAT tour and a good kick off for the day!

From Deadwood, we had another long day and headed east. The ride was amazing! The views were spectacular!

There were several times that I had to pinch myself to realize I wasn’t dreaming.

 

Of course we were tired but it was well worth it!

Thanks to Gary’s driving,  and Spartan ERV  for giving us enough room; we were able to catch a quick nap when needed.

It’s not the first time either of us have slept in a fire truck …LOL

Of course when you’re riding with a bunch like we were ….. the naps don’t last long. Someone would “accidentally” stand on the air horn or the three of them would scream “OH MY GOD” as Gary got on the brakes etc ….

LMAO … they took about 10 years off my life (I’m surprised the videos haven’t made it up yet but I’m sure they will).

Anyway, it was a long ride across the state but again, WELL WORTH IT.

The guys thought I was nuts but I even had em stop along the road just so I could get a picture of the land.

The shot to the left is one of my favorites from the trip.

I needed about 2 or 3 more weeks out there to take in everything I wanted to.

I’m not even half way through the trip yet and the post is getting a little long. In an effort to save your eyes (and keep you interested..lol) I’ll stop here for the night and follow up with parts #2 and maybe even a #3 for the trip.

Thanks as always for following along …. be sure to check back for the rest of the story! **UPDATE** Find part #2 HERE and Part #3 HERE 

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Until then, stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

 

How to “shock” a porn star

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Apparently, all you need to do is give her an application to the Cave Spring Volunteer Fire Department.

You may remember back in June when we broke the story about, an ex-porn star volunteering at the Cave Spring Volunteer Rescue Squad. Read that post HERE .

It caused quite a stink in and around the Roanoke Valley and you heard it first right here on these pages. Although they failed to link to or even mention Ironfiremen.com, the Huffington Post even picked up on the story! Read their coverage HERE .

Well, as big as a “shock” as the Harmony Rose story was; now the Cave Spring Volunteer Fire Department has “one upped” the Rescue Squad and delivered an even bigger shock…. yea get ready for it ….  ”the shocker”

Since my days as a Melrose Misfit, the boys have been telling me about things such as “the Shocker”, “the Rocker” and even “the Show Stopper”.

With the help of a freaky fireman down at #5, they’ve even tried to educate me on terms such as the “The Bat Wing, “The Eyeball” “The  Goat” and many other terms.

I’m still not real sure what they were talking about but the one thing I do know is that there are several members of the Cave Spring Volunteer Fire Department that are VERY LUCKY to be alive.

On Thursday, September 6, 2012, the Cave Spring Volunteer Fire Department was conducting some training on Commonwealth Drive in South Roanoke County. The on duty crew utilized both a Wagon and Ladder Truck for their training evolution (equipment and members from the Cave Spring Rescue Squad were also in attendance).

It is still uncertain what the objective of the training evolution was but it is certainly clear that it didn’t end as planned.

The Wagon was apparently connected to a hydrant and supplying water to an elevated master stream from the Ladder truck. It remains unclear at this time whether or not the Ladder was flowing at the time of the incident.

At some point in the evolution, the ladder either came in contact with or became close enough to a high voltage power line to cause the equipment to become energized.  The result was devastating, yet amazing in that nobody was injured or killed . The incident could also become very costly to Roanoke County and their fleet of fire apparatus.

The damage was significant. It is believed that both pieces of equipment could be a total loss. That could add up to somewhere around $1.5 million dollars of damage. The Ladder was a 2000 Pierce while the Wagon was a brand new 2012 model ( Story and photos HERE ). It’s believed that the County’s insurance will access the damages later this week.

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It’s been reported that the jolt even blew out every tire on both trucks. That’s 16 tires in total! Rumors are of the electrical systems being blown out of their panels and the inability  to turn systems on and/or off following the charge. Members on scene (or having witnessed the aftermath) report an obvious path of current down the ladder and through the out-riggers.

Due to the hydrant flowing, there was water on the ground, reaching to and beyond the Wagon and surrounding area which could have easily allowed for the flow of current from one piece to the other.

At least one member was atop the turntable at the time of the incident but it remains unclear where the remaining members were located at the time of the incident (reports are of up to 12 members on scene). How they were not injured remains undetermined and under investigation. THEY WERE LUCKY!

At the least, this incident is a “Close Call” or “Near Miss”. Chief Goldfeder even ran it on Firefighter Close Calls (view that story / link HERE ). I have spoken with Officers of both the Cave Spring VFD and Roanoke County Fire / Rescue and they all say it’s a miracle that nobody was injured or killed.

There are some very basic lessons to be learned from this incident and quite honestly, I’m shocked that neither party has been eager to share them with the Fire Service as a whole. As embarrassing as it may be, at least; others can learn from whatever mistakes were made.

I’ve asked for pictures of the damage just so you all can see how serious this incident actually was. I’ve been told that they either don’t exist or that I can’t have them (depending on who I talk to). Our own local news reporters couldn’t even get a shot of the carnage.

Apparently, the trucks are now in a secure, remote location with no access from the public or press.

I wonder what they’re hiding?

Are the damages worse than previously reported?

I’ve talked to my contacts. I’ve told them … get out in front of the issues. Show what you have and tell what you can. ..”this” is what we know, “here’s ” what it looks like and the rest is being investigated…. we will share more as it becomes available. People are asking and we want and DESERVE an answer ( I am a Roanoke County tax payer).

Dave Statter will tell you that this is the correct way to handle such a situation. Rhett, Dave and I even offer classes on this exact subject but apparently, those closest to us are turning a deaf ear. That’s what upsets me the most. Both Roanoke County Fire/Rescue and the Cave Spring VFD are first class organizations. I expect so much more from both of them.

Again, I’ll say it’s like they’re hiding something. It’s just like  all the incidents happening in a nearby City.

Rumors are ABUNDANT! We are hearing of a member having  either resigned or haven been fired, a Captain on or off of administrative leave, inappropriate text messages, pornography,  a DUI, revoked licenses,  a picture of a moose with 2 assholes and even that there is no such thing as the Tooth Fairy, the Easter Bunny or Santa Claus! WTF? I wish I could elaborate more but apparently, a “gag order” has been issued and nobody can tell me exactly what it is that I’m not supposed to talk about.

My point here is this. Without FACT … the “rumor mill” grows. Even IF an incident is under investigation and all details are not yet known, put out what you know, and where you’re going with it.  Keep your members, the public and press informed UP FRONT and it will save you a lot of work and explaining on the back side.

When the photos and “full story” of the Cave Spring incident are worthy of our attention, I will share them here on Ironfiremen.com. Until then, feel free to use the comment section to voice your opinion, concerns or point of view … I look forward to hearing them. Don’t forget to follow and “Like” us on Face Book by using the link above.

ALWAYS CHECK FOR OVERHEAD OBSTRUCTIONS …. stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines

 

2 Great events and a miracle in Roanoke

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There are several GREAT events coming up and 2 of them will be here in Roanoke.

The 1st I want to remind you about is our 5th Annual Fire Officer Development Seminar to be held at the Roanoke Civic Center on September 20th and 21st.

This year the speaker will be Christopher J. Naum, SFPE. Chris has a long list of credentials which includes Chief of Training for the Command Institute in Washington DC. You may also know Chris from some very popular sites such as Command Safety, Buildings on Fire and The Company Officer .

This years topic will be  “Five Star Command; Redefining Fire Officer Training for Operational Safety & Excellence”. You DO NOT want to miss this event! Winchester to Bristol …. anywhere within 100 miles (or more)  needs to be here. I honestly don’t think that there is a firefighter or Department in Virginia that will not take something away from Chris’ lecture.

Rhett and I will also be on hand and helping with the event. That said, you know we’re going to end up somewhere drinking a few beers and talking over all the latest happenings in the Fire Service…. that alone is worth the trip..LOL.

Registration is still open and we have plenty of room so bring your entire company. The presentation is the same both days so you only need to attend 1 day. The classes last from 08:30-16:30 each day with lunch and “break” snack provided . We also have some great items to give away and raffle.

The 2nd event is FIRED UP FOR A CURE and Roanoke’s Bravest will be out in force to help extinguish Breast Cancer!

“The goal of this event is to prevent, educate and advocate about the importance of self breast exams, mammograms and also to remind citizens to practice their fire safety plans”. 

The event will also be held at the Civic Center on September 22, 2012 (the day after the Officer Development Seminar).

It’s a family oriented event with TONS of activities.

The day begins with a 5 & 10k run.

Even if you don’t participate in the run / walk, be sure to show up and cheer on those who do … you never know who see.

Yep … that’s Rhett ( Lt Rhett Fleitz of FireCritic.com) and his beautiful wife Becky after last year’s 5k.

Rhett and Becky ran as a couple last year. They finished 67 & 68th @ 32minutes and 27 seconds… VERY RESPECTABLE!

They are planning on running again this year.

You may also find …. The Roanoke Fire-EMS fire safety house and fire trucks, Free food, Roanoke police department displays, Live DJ, kids’ activities, raffles and door prizes, Breast cancer awareness displays and much more!

Visit Fired Up For A Cure’s Web Site or find them on Face Book

 Ok, there’s the events … here is the “miracle”…

That’s Roanoke City’s Engine 8 parked inside of Historic Fire Station #1.

Now, to many of you; this is no big deal but for those of us who were around for Station #1′s closing … it is.

You see, among all the “smoke and mirrors” a previous Chief used to “sell” shutting down the station there is one statement I haven’t forgotten.

That Chief gave the main reason for closing stations as that they could not accommodate “modern day fire equipment” … they wouldn’t fit. I guess he was thinking it was easier to build new stations rather than put a little extra thought into out truck specs.

After all, that is a 2012 Pierce Engine backed into the station (psssst … look past the gals fellas … there IS a fire truck behind them..LOL).  Read more on the closing of Fire Station #1 HERE .

LOL … so that’s the miracle and I couldn’t let the opportunity to share it pass by.

Ok, so today is the last of our cycle and Rhett is working for Randy.

I think Randy’s brain needed a little rest. Our Lieutenant, George Perdue has started working with him on driving / pumping. Those of you have follow the site regularly will know that our little “Rookie Randy” just made it off probation last month. Learning to drive and pump is just the beginning of what he now has to learn.

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We’ve had a busy morning but this evening hasn’t been too bad.

Rhett seems a little excited due to the fact that he’s riding backwards. He actually thinks he may get on the nozzle tonight. What I haven’t explained to him is that I plan on stopping at the hydrant so he’ll be out doing the “Hydrant Wrench Shuffle” while I make the stretch …LMAO.

Here’s a shot of us posing with the newest addition to our Challenge Coin and patch collection.

They were sent to us by Brother  David Lee Pfeil Jr of the Fort Detrick, Forest Glen Fire and Emergency Services Station #54 in Maryland.

He is also IAFF Local F-151 

Both the coin and patch are AWESOME … THANKS Brother!

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Gonna wrap it up for tonight and try to get a little rest. The pace has kinda “pick up” around here … we just took in a bad one (EMS run) but I can’t give details yet. I will give a helmet tip to the Brothers and Sister from Medic #4 and RS1 … good job guys!

Ok, until I get back, stay SAFE and in House!

Captain Wines